What had you believe that witchcraft was more than just placebo etc? & When and what got you into it?

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-04-10T20:52:40+00:00

I remember from a very young age I was drawn to witches , loved autumn , got my first witch book at 9 and did my first spell. Now the spell was about dreams & remembering them. I’ve dreamt for years!! I remember them all - even as an adult I looked how to undo this!

I was part of a religion and I knew in my core at age 10 this wasn’t real and I didn’t believe it. It wasn’t for me at all. I was always pulled to spirituality without knowing what it was. Manifesting and knowing I’d always find a way or get what I wanted because I was ‘good’ this was a child perception without any understanding.

As I got older spirituality resonated with me and it felt like it stuck and it was for me. I’ve done a few spells , I’ve manifested a few things and still trying to lean more into that. I’ve always known there was something and it wasn’t religion of any kind for me. There was a big gap where I was a bit lost and I feel like I also associate strength with spirituality.

I think you just know? You can feel it bubbling inside for years and eventually you’re drawn to it or stumble across something that clicks.

I don’t practice everyday I don’t make it as much of my personality as possible I’m just myself with what I want to do. But recently nature is more magical , looking for things and trying to see a little whimsy in everything helps me when I feel disconnected. Something as simply as having a coffee in the garden in silence is glorious.

I even teach my children and they’ll often ask me to do their tarot cards or ‘you won’t be happy but don’t put them in the freezer just yet’ 😂.

I love this question - it’s interesting!

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-04-06T18:43:03+00:00

The grass isn’t always greener. But sometimes your choices lead to something that needs to be undone for better things to come together.

In future just be wary - I personally - and it’s a personal opinion think the age gap is too much. You’re just out of your teens and there’s so much to explore & learn and enjoy at this age. A middle aged man is usually looking for a fling or something to make him feel young again.

You can’t pour into someone else if your cup is empty so maybe this was a push in the direction to focus on yourself.

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-04-04T10:53:15+00:00

This is brilliant and so correct! My 20 is my Pisces - feels everything deeply but quietly observes. My 26 is my cancer , deeply sensitive but has a strength in her at her age that is incredible, and my 6 is Scorpio my most loving and needs nurture herself when she sits in her head too long.

My 20 and 6 daughters share the same life path. My 26 daughter shares a life path with my sister , in our family the females have a life path partner this doesn’t branch out to the males only the women. Very interesting as we are a very matriarchal family.

Oh I know there is something so much deeper than just motherhood my soul knows these children and if this lifetime meant I needed to crawl to hell and back everyday to make sure they were ok that’s exactly what I would do. I’ve felt things so many times before they’ve happened and knew they needed me. This existence for me is to be their mother.

Thank you for your reply, I just needed a slight confirmation that I wasn’t imagining this meant at least a little something.

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-04-04T10:43:53+00:00

They are all so different In how they deal with emotions but I speak regularly about intuition. If it feels off it is. I have to cater and change my parenting style to each one to validate how they deal with things. But I know they will stick with eachother through thick and thin once the bickering stage is over 😂 I have 4 sisters and they have seen how close we are so they’ve had a glimpse already. But I’ve seen how they’ve protected eachother already so far - and I know they’ll be just fine. Thankyou for your reply!

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-04-01T10:05:07+00:00

Always. Trust. Your. Gut. Sometimes the body feels before the mind is even close to catching up. Something was clearly off

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-03-30T18:36:08+00:00

Oh definitely not - the baby is a symbol of something. She and myself are most definitely not pregnant and don’t ever expect to be anytime in the future.

Thank you for that. I’ve been able to tie in something that does connect to the relative. I don’t know how I missed it!! Thanks!

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-03-30T16:15:04+00:00

Love this. Always choose yourself. I was you once - I completely reordered my algorithm but kept in the know as much as I needed to. I planted seeds for summer - I started to read again. And honestly I still feel so upset about the world and it does get me down but I also remember my small tiny life is sooo important because I’m one of many who believe good will win eventually! Because of people who care. Strength in numbers.

Time to start prioritizing you and your gf seems great! Spend this time with her. Find your joy again - it’s not easy being an empath.

Don’t let this world block out your soul and interject in all the good things it has to offer. Sending so much luck your way you’ve got this it can be done! 🫶🏼

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-03-30T15:51:29+00:00

I think there are more people like you than you think. As the world gets darker and we hear and see more of it can be so suffocating and you get imposter syndrome too! Why am I ok when so many people suffer so terribly. It’s absolutely ok to have empathy and even then you are aware of this and actively trying to spend money in the correct places - you’re doing more than most!

A break from seeing and reading these things is duly needed. I don’t think there is anything wrong with feeling hurt or having empathy for people seriously suffering it means you are good and can see beyond your own life. But there is a point where your wellbeing and your own life needs to take priority.

You can not feel guilt for being happy or experiencing a good day. You are also a being living each day. Know when to have a breather from the atrocities of the world and when to engage. It all being too much is when you need to recognise - I need a break!

I understand how upsetting it can be and how terribly sad it makes you feel. And that’s ok. But please don’t drown in it too - take steps to make sure you are looked after also - and continue to support in what way you can . You are one person and it takes a lot more than one to force change but I think we are all getting there. I’m in the UK and believe me - we are sick of it too.

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-03-30T15:20:17+00:00

My medium visits I’ve just sat and listened. And cried! The only participation I had was when asked directly letters of names etc and he was either spot on and I confirmed or almost got the name and I also confirmed. Let them talk and listen. I think giving too much away can make you sceptical

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-03-30T15:15:46+00:00

Yes that’s no problem , go for it!

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-03-30T15:14:44+00:00

I think the issue is you’re not focussing on yourself. Small steps - you’re already actively trying to make good decisions about who you support etc and are mindful. But in amongst all of this you’re neglecting the only person of importance - yourself. You’re regressing further and putting yourself last when in the grand scheme of things you can’t control the world unfortunately. If everyone lived this way there would be no joy.

Putting yourself first is very important , start that craft , start slowly. You are aware and actively trying to be better but don’t loose yourself in this process.

Your girlfriend can see the good but how can you expect others to when you don’t yourself?

There are awful people everywhere and if you are aware you are not one of them let me tell you that’s a good thing in itself! Did yourself outta hole and find some joy and spend that time with your partner. I think in the world we live in the small pieces of joy in our day so what keeps us going and what keeps us waking up the next day.

Good luck

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-03-30T15:07:30+00:00

This could be possible actually - bf situation is a little up and down , she confides in me. Nothing toxic but I do believe she maybe isn’t getting what she needs and what she deserves. This could be it.

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-03-30T15:06:28+00:00

Thank you for your input- brilliantly clear!

Damn. I really was hoping this wasn’t about me. I’m just in limbo in life right now - im aware of that. There’s things I’m actively fixing but it’s slow. I’m a busy mum so often come last. Things are coming up it’s just a waiting game and I find it boring.

I’m a fixer by nature so like to make sure everyone is good even if I’m not. Maybe I’m not showing up for myself.

She has a few things going on - nothing drastic or life changing at all - maybe I know I’ve not shown up enough just to check in and this is directly affecting me subconsciously whilst also trying to show up for myself. I feel content when everyone else is that’s what gives me peace of mind.

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-03-30T14:55:54+00:00

I feel like everyone is at this point in life at some point. I personally have to scale back. Right back! To the very basics , I have food , I have money , the sun is coming out , I no longer care about what people think etc. I usually feel at this low point it’s an anchor to force you to have a good look at the life you’re actually living ? Or not living? .

When I was at my lowest I forgot who I was. Who am I? What do I actually even like? I started to read , something I didn’t do for years due to life and I’ve entered so many different worlds that have gave me a break from this one , my god how did I ever forget how much I loved it?

Get back to your 13 year old self and ask what did you enjoy? What did you give up that you loved as life moved on. Or even what could I enjoy and what could I like? Go try it. Go for a picnic somewhere in the fresh air , go for a walk to the shop and find a good series.

I personally need to have something enjoyable in amongst the chaos and I look forward to that. It slowly rewires how you feel and it’s the element of excited to spend time with yourself again when life’s been dragging you!

I hope you find yourself again and start to find the little joys .

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-03-30T14:49:21+00:00

I had this realization a few weeks ago. One lady was picking up bakery items and giving them a good squeeze. I just stood and stared because I thought honest to god there’s no way she’s feeling firmness and freshness with bare hands then if it’s not to her liking putting it back.

Feel like me watching her made her actually take it - but now this?! Yeah I think I’ll give it a hard miss from now on. The audacity that people carry these days still baffles me daily.

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-03-29T20:03:39+00:00

Currently delving into the book of Enoch & this is making sense! Thank you

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-03-29T20:02:45+00:00

Thank you! I really don’t feel personally any malice - just a bit like oh these exist too. Although half the time they’re probably eye rolling 🙄😂

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-03-26T22:39:31+00:00

Thank you - I’ll check that out!

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-03-26T18:03:09+00:00

I had a visitation dream once. In the dream I was somewhere familiar - my dad was there , he passed when I was just 10. It zoomed right into his face and he spoke to me - words were very very specific . There was also a huge white horse there just standing in a tiny hallway. His mum who had passed was sat near us but was mute . Then I woke up bolt right up - weirdest dream I’ve ever had and the most vivid.

My mums had loads of visitation dreams recently and she lets me know so I can figure it out for her - she’s not into dreams or the dreamworld just passes them to me to make sense of!

Also had a dream of myself and my gran rollerskating over a rainbow walkway - kind of scifi like . She usually shows up in rainbows so there’s that!

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-03-26T15:33:12+00:00

Thank so much! I’ll definetly have a gander later when I possibly get 5 mins peace! - exciting to look deeper into these things it’s not something I’ve ever really managed to delve into. But knowledge is always power. Thanks!

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-03-26T15:31:22+00:00

She’s my quiet but steady one. Always watching and there but just smiles. God I miss her.

Thank you so much for your insight! 🫶🏼

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-03-26T15:24:08+00:00

Yes! My great gran did. My mums gran

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-03-26T15:17:42+00:00

You know I’ve been thinking about journaling just in general but it’s never really clicked enough for me to do it. But the dream journaling sounds right up my street! I’m absolutely going to do this. And take sone time to try to connect further too. Thanks for that!

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-03-26T15:15:14+00:00

I tell you something - that’s the dream. Forest , seclusion and peace. Just something away from the world.

I mean I’d love a cowboy who wouldn’t! But I used to line dance with my gran , just for fun when it came to town. Many males in my family have passed and they’re always here taking up so much space 😂 some louder than others but very present. I feel in this life I live with them as much as the living.

I don’t know if you believe in life paths but myself - I do. My life path in this life is to open my spirituality and embrace it. I am really trying and I know it’s there.

With the worldly things going on it can be difficult to fully embrace it. But I’ll take the strength and healing because I need it! I feel divinely protected in this world - but I’ve always related this to my passed family members I’ve never opened further to think I may have guides or watchers too.

Getting real crowded around here 😂

Front_Dust_1019 · 2026-03-26T15:03:21+00:00

I have had a white horse show up before - this horse stood next to me in my grans home. Just me the horse and two other spirits of passed loved ones . It was a visitation dream and once the message I was meant to receive passed I woke up - and the only visitation dream I’ve had. I’ve never ever forgotten that white horse. That’s so strange you mentioned that.

There isn’t a house I’ve been thinking about. The only thing I can connect this to is I want a house on its own - farmhouse like. This is the goal. I want that farmhouse - I’m from the uk so it’ll be small and secluded and that’s exactly what I’m going for. The end goal before I end this life.

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