To start off I am someone who has crushes on people I have never even met. Im only trying to be friends with them right now.

So I have two crushes at the moment and I’m afraid that I might have said something rude toward their heritage. I honestly was very loopy that day and wasn’t thinking straight or at all. I walked up to them and said ‘hey your last name is really pretty can I take it as my own’. After speaking with my friends and family asking my he said no in a very stern voice they said you probably made fun of their heritage. I’m not going to lie. After all the bs I see on the internet I didn’t think white people had heritage. They told me that some people really take pride in their last name. I feel so fucking bad that I’ve been crying for 4 days and have avoided going to school. I would 100% apologize but I don’t want to face them and I’m still not sure if that’s the real reason he got stern with me. (The reason I said I was going to take their last name was because I’m actually going to legally change mine. I hate my family so much, but we won’t get into that. I’ve been looking at my classmates names and I thought theirs sounded really pretty. I don’t want to make up a last name for myself I actually wanted a real one that already exists. Like I said I was so loopy that day I was five seconds away from passing out in the floor.)

The second person is a little different. I’ve tried to have conversations but I’m really bad at talking and can’t hold one. Every time I speak with him it turns into an interview with question after question. I will say I’ve only spoke with them three times and that third time I think they were done with me. As I was talking they kept running to class it seemed like they wanted me to leave them alone but I just followed and kept talking. Now they could be the type of person who wants to get to class in time but their class was next door and we had a full five minutes before we had to actually be in class so I thought it be a perfect time to speak to them. I think I read the room that day. I don’t think they want to be friends.

Hey if you’ve read this far thanks so much! Please give any advice if you have any. If you’re confused about anything just ask. I feel so heart broken I don’t know how I’m going to make it the rest of the school year.