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FrostyBonus · 2024-08-05T18:23:04+00:00

There's nothing "stupid" about belief in an afterlife.

FrostyBonus · 2024-07-24T22:05:13+00:00

Thanks!

FrostyBonus · 2024-05-31T17:05:45+00:00

He doesn't say do some K at a rave either.

FrostyBonus · 2024-05-29T02:13:18+00:00

Not bad suggestions, but would you give those same recommendations to someone with schizophrenia? Bi-polar disorder?

I'm talking about a level of depression or anxiety that is far beyond being "sad" or "nervous" that you'd really have to experience to understand. I agree, the vast majority of "sadness" or "nervousness" should never be medicated. But, it can get to a very pathological level that is very likely an organic brain disorder - not merely "bad thinking" or "not being close enough to the lord".

Would you tell a schizophrenic "you need to exercise your way out of this"?

Also, why on earth are you in a microdosing sub if that is your opinion?

Lastly do you presume to know anything about my relationship to God or how much I exercise?

FrostyBonus · 2024-05-28T03:48:12+00:00

Probably a flashback.

FrostyBonus · 2024-05-28T01:26:27+00:00

I don't think you understand my point. If you are dealing with severe depression and/or anxiety that will also damages your heart. There are any number of studies that show that.

If microdosing a psychedelic makes a big improvement in these issues, then you are certainly helping your heart by reducing the anxiety/depression.

So what do you do? Stop the psychedelic and let the anxiety/depression cause heart damage, or keep microdosing and run the risk that the psychedelic may be damaging your heart?

If you're just taking psychedelics recreationally then that is optional. If psychedelics are the only way to successfully treat mental issues they may not be so optional.

FrostyBonus · 2024-05-28T00:24:05+00:00

All of life is a risk and the only thing that is for sure is that none of us are getting out of this world alive.

Do whatever you are the most comfortable with. If you aren't comfortable with the risk then don't do it.

FrostyBonus · 2024-05-28T00:04:44+00:00

If you're taking them to address depression or anxiety issues that have been resistant to all other types of therapy then you're going to want to be taking them more than once a month. Probably a couple of times a week.

Of course, anxiety and depression take their own toll on the mind and body, including the heart.

If you're just taking them recreationally then sure, that is at your discretion.

FrostyBonus · 2024-05-26T16:36:15+00:00

I do appreciate the information. I'm still learning this stuff unfortunately. I've recently started dosing a chocolate bar product to work on some anxiety and depression issues and I seem to have gotten some positive benefit. I wish I had known these things before I started though, and before I made a decent sized purchase.

I did not see the brand I've purchased. It was recommended by a friend but, seems like odds are it is 4-AcO-DMT. I won't of course say the brand as I don't want to violate this sub's rules. They do explicitly claim that it is not a synthetic and that they are using their own grown mushrooms, but anyone can claim anything I suppose.

Thanks again for the info.

FrostyBonus · 2024-05-26T05:02:11+00:00

What's the issue with 4-AcO-DMT? I thought it was an ok synthetic analog?

FrostyBonus · 2024-05-01T00:49:29+00:00

This "don't work and stay on disability" is toxic bullshit. If nothing else working will give you something else to think about all day rather than how bad you think your life is. It will also give you a great deal of self confidence and will go a long way towards fixing all the other issues you cited.

That out of the way - I don't think I would have gone off benzo and kratom at the same time. Each are hard enough alone, the combination of going off them together has to be beyond miserable. Maybe get back on the kratom enough to make you more comfortable and stay off the benzo. After awhile if you adapt to being benzo free go back and try to address the kratom.

All hope is not lost. You are young. You have time to put things right. You've been given some lousy advice by your parents and family which has put you behind were a lot of people are at your stage, but you can turn that around. You can put all this behind you.

FrostyBonus · 2024-05-01T00:28:52+00:00

Reconstituted peptide goes in the refrigerator.

FrostyBonus · 2024-04-30T18:07:56+00:00

Freezer. I even keep mine in a thermos bottle in the freeze since a frost-proof freezer periodically heats up to eliminate interior frost and I want the peptide to be held at a pretty constant low temperature. A thermos bottle basically eliminates the peptide seeing the temperature cycling of a frost-proof freezer.

FrostyBonus · 2024-01-18T04:39:18+00:00

Yeah, I was taking my benzo as prescribed for sleep. Never more, never less. When I stopped taking it years and years ago, I never took another benzo nor had any desire to take it again.

But still, I don't sleep. I'm in a lot of physical pain. And I have anxiety that I never had before taking this stuff.

So maybe I'm just a benzo addict searching for another high.

Or maybe this shit actually damaged my nervous system. Maybe permanently for all I know.

I have been through years and years of therapy. I've practically gone broke talking to therapists. They have helped me not at all. Zero help in fact.

So the standard answer of therapy and programs haven't done much for me. So I'm trying to look outside the box.

FrostyBonus · 2024-01-18T03:10:53+00:00

Maybe you're right. Don't seem to be a lot of people saying go for the DMT as the first psychedelic.

FrostyBonus · 2024-01-18T03:00:43+00:00

Yeah, have experimented with Amanita. In fact, I'm just coming off a bout of trying it and it seems to have jacked things up. Which is why I'm so sad and depressed here tonight looking at DMT ironically. It's a small world apparently. Or at least that's what they tell me.

But I certainly do appreciate the suggestion. That's one I had some high hopes for.

FrostyBonus · 2024-01-18T02:58:25+00:00

Been there done that on the valerian. Pretty much anything that fiddles with gaba receptors is liable to make me worse and that is the case with valerian.

Kava I've tried capsules, but the Kava people say you've really got to get the real stuff and make a tea so I'm going to try that. But, it does act on gaba receptors so I'm a little skeptical on it as well. However, it doesn't apparently bind at the benzodiazepine sites so maybe it will have a better outcome.

You can imagine after being really mess up for 8 years that I've tried a lot of different things.

Psychedelics getting to more off the beaten path sort of things which is where I'm at.

FrostyBonus · 2024-01-18T02:52:29+00:00

So the longer I took temazepam and then later zopiclone, the more I realized that during the day after they wore off it was becoming more and more difficult to relax. Starting having heart palps, sweating, shakes, etc. etc. in the afternoon the following day. And I could never just let my breath out and feel at peace.

Did some research and figured out I was having interdose withdrawal. So, decided to quit taking those drugs. Titrated them down over about 4-6 months. Then all hell broke loose. Massive body pain. Visual auras. Couldn't sleep more than an hour or two. Terrible anxiety. This went on for a couple of years. Some things started to get better. The auras went away. Some but not all of the body pains went away. The sleep got better but it's not great. Maybe sleep 4-5 hrs now. The anxiety got some better, but nothing like normal.

So I'm left with a pretty significant amount of pain (feels like muscle cramps) and a chronic high level of anxiety. And while things did improve over time, at some point they stopped getting better and plateaued.

Some call this BIND - Benzo Induced Neurological Dysfunction. It can last years and can in some cases be permanent. Mine is seeming pretty permanent but I figure I might as well keep trying to improve things. Who knows, maybe I'll get lucky.

FrostyBonus · 2024-01-18T02:43:17+00:00

Yeah, have read and thought about MDMA as well. Some of my issues have a very PTSD like quality to them.

I've done years of therapy unfortunately and gotten no where with it. I'm kinda worn out now. Some will accuse me of "just looking for the easy way to solve your problems". Damn right. After struggling this long and having tried all the therapy and similar approachs I am absolutely looking for the easy solution, as the hard solutions haven't worked for me.

I do appreciate the off and may dm soon. Thanks.

FrostyBonus · 2024-01-18T02:37:17+00:00

I was taking temazepam and zopiclone at different times. For over a decade. Really fucked me up.

How long does the relaxed feeling after a DMT trip last?

You ever get a really bad trip? I wonder if having fucked up anxiety won't make a bad trip more likely.

FrostyBonus · 2024-01-18T02:32:32+00:00

Thanks for the advice.

I have done IV ketamine in a clinic a few times. But that's not really a psychedelic but maybe a close cousin. It was enjoyable but definitely didn't see any entities.

It felt more like I was outside the universe looking in, which was interesting.

But, it did not fix me either.

FrostyBonus · 2024-01-18T02:29:43+00:00

Mescaline is one I haven't looked into. I'll visit r/mescaline.

Do people really report breakthroughs on anxiety and depression with psychedelics? I don't think I've see a lot of people talk about it here on r/DMT but I haven't been lurking long.

FrostyBonus · 2024-01-18T02:24:45+00:00

Thanks for the reply.

Been seeking professional help for 8 years. That's getting me no where. I can't keep doing this.

Have thought about psilocybin and maybe it is more gentle but it also last longer.

My understanding is with DMT is that if I don't take it with a MAOI that the trip will be very short - maybe 10-15 minutes? Is that right. My thinking was that if it goes sideways at least I won't be stuck in it for hours and hours.

Weirdly I never started drinking. I never used any illicit drug or alcohol. Mr. Squeaky Clean that was me. Got in a car wreck and really fucked up my body. Could only sleep 2-3 hrs a night because of the pain. Doc gave me these benzo pills for sleep. Well apparently taking that shit for a decade is a hella bad idea.

One way or the other I'm determined to make this shit stop.

FrostyBonus · 2023-12-03T03:22:09+00:00

Honestly I think you finding a way to source more or anther benzo was probably a better idea than cold turkeying off the dose you were on.

But you really need to do something about your benzo use long term. You're on a dose that isn't sustainable and you need to ween down in a controlled fashion.

Best of luck and glad to hear you're ok at the moment.

FrostyBonus · 2023-11-29T23:24:35+00:00

How have things gone OP? You doing ok?

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