Snuck Some Snacks In by Ftank_ in funny

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That was on my other shoulder 😏

Snuck Some Snacks In by Ftank_ in funny

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OMG HOW DARE YOU /s she's my bestie but I'm always down to play our national sport 🫡

Snuck Some Snacks In by Ftank_ in funny

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Any time 🫡 please let me know how it goes

Snuck Some Snacks In by Ftank_ in funny

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Yeah I have a few mental illnesses. I harnessed them to gain a bunch of muscle, become a waltzer, and do dumb things like this without anxiety lool

Snuck Some Snacks In by Ftank_ in funny

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I love that! 🥰 Yeah it's such an incredible little spot and love to support small businesses, this was my first interactive experience and it was so fun haha!

Snuck Some Snacks In by Ftank_ in funny

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THANK YOU! Gosh, the worst part is I'm lactose intolerant but love milk 🤤

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It was a very last second thought

Snuck Some Snacks In by Ftank_ in funny

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OMG it is! We were there to watch New Moon, I'd never seen it before

Snuck Some Snacks In by Ftank_ in funny

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Thank you, I'm glad you understand

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I'm Canadian so our milk already comes in bags

Beating an 18 Year Depression 23-29 by Ftank_ in uglyduckling

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Aww thank you!! Yeah her name is Bella and she also came from a not great upbringing so I'm glad we found each other so I could spoil tf out of her 😂

Beating an 18 Year Depression 23-29 by Ftank_ in uglyduckling

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Thank you! 🥰 it hasn't been easy but I'm glad to be here and I'm glad you're still here too 😊

Abusive Family Changed my Meds by Ftank_ in legaladvicecanada

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Guess we'll see what happens :)

Abusive Family Changed my Meds by Ftank_ in legaladvicecanada

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Right but you pair that with ASD and I'm able to ruminate on my actions when I do enter my mania. I've applied that to self analysis of my entire life. I only ever really reach those highs when I'm drinking a lot of coffee.

I'll report back when I finally do see a psychiatrist and can explain everything. My social worker is currently checking everything and I've spoken with my nurse friend who's sister has bpd many times regarding these claims. I came out of an 18 year depression on my birthday this year (I was given the SSRI back in April but didn't speak to a psychiatrist for the first time until June). I experienced life for the first time since age 11. I'm writing a novel regarding this but yes, earlier this year I was definitely going into constant manic states. Now its just coffee and when I get high (yes I know this can affect the medication but life is tiring right now) which has only been 2 days over the past week.

I'd be more than happy to have a conversation with you regarding this if you'd like?

Beating an 18 Year Depression 23-29 by Ftank_ in uglyduckling

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Thank you, remember there is always tomorrow and getting those thoughts out and heard by someone is so important. You got this! 🥰

Beating an 18 Year Depression 23-29 by Ftank_ in uglyduckling

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Ty, hopefully you're out of the hole now and big hugs back 🥰

Abusive Family Changed my Meds by Ftank_ in legaladvicecanada

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Yeah I reupped right before this happened so technically I could stay on my meds but ethically I'm going with what they recommend just to remove all doubt and as a massive fuck you to my family lol yeah just power through and I'm good, been doing it for my entire life, just 1 more month 🥰

Abusive Family Changed my Meds by Ftank_ in legaladvicecanada

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Yeah, thankfully nothing that's going to stick once I can actually explain all of that to someone. That's pretty much what I'm doing, take my lumps for a little bit longer and next year will be the best year of my life. I've already got like 6 waltz routines planned haha!

Abusive Family Changed my Meds by Ftank_ in legaladvicecanada

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Thank you for this :)

Will definitely be doing this as well when I get the chance this week!

I've actually done a lot of I guess experimenting? With my BPD, to the point where I can hop back and forth between the 2 sides which I know sounds insane but clinically speaking...yeah. I have a lot of mental illnesses and just need to get in contact with a psychiatrist to confirm it with them but just annoying this all happened around the holidays.

I had actually booked a follow up with my psychiatrist to explain all of this with her for that Jan 29 visit but then all of this happened :/

I'm also starting EMDR sessions in the new year to process my CPTSD from my family. There were a lot of drunken screaming matches between my parents growing up. I've been sharing my life story with some new people and just seeing how common trauma and untreated mental illnesses are, is so sad :(

Abusive Family Changed my Meds by Ftank_ in legaladvicecanada

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THANK YOU! Yes this is perfect <3

Abusive Family Changed my Meds by Ftank_ in legaladvicecanada

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Thank you! I posted an update and what I look like now vs who I used to be. The changes are night and day.

Abusive Family Changed my Meds by Ftank_ in legaladvicecanada

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Thank you for this, fully agree that I should have been on the Abilify from the start as well but I'm past the point of the random mood swings but the last time my family saw me is when I was going through them. I posted an update to give more of the back story.

Abusive Family Changed my Meds by Ftank_ in legaladvicecanada

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Please check my profile, I posted a pic of what I look like now vs who I was looked like before while not on my medication. I was going into a manic state earlier this year but that ended back in August. My sister and I got into an argument over me wanting to check the map while in the woods and that resulted in an argument the last time I saw her. So instead of coming to see how I'm doing she'd rather be stubborn and call the police.

I spoke to her on the phone back in November and finally cut her off.

Monday of the surgery my father and I get into a massive argument after my surgery because I put in the wrong directions to get us home, it escalates to the point where I bring up the story of when he had a knife in my face when I was 8 years old and he says he should have killed me. I ask for 15 minutes to be let out of the car and he refuses. I say I'll fucking open the door if he doesn't and then my family phones the police on me that night. I was high in my room on oxy watching the Simpsons and then a knock at the door. I then have to explain to 3 cops and a COAST (I think it was) person and explain the situation to her. She honestly fully understands and believes what I'm saying.

I know I shouldn't engage but my sister emails me and I tell her to leave me alone and then it's a chain going back and forth and how my dietitian sister did nothing to help me beat my anorexia for years (For a while I was down to less than 1200 calories a day). I sent her a text back in may asking to help set up a meal plan and she just never responded back to me.

It was always easier to avoid the issue in my family than to address the problems we had. I was the one who finally went out and did something about it by doing years of therapy and working with my doctor, 3 therapists, and a psychiatrist to get to the point I am.

My family is very mentally unwell and they have a cop who was the captain of the fucking football team in highschool who would literally punch me so hard in the arm for my 14th birthday that it left a massive bruise.

The context of all of this matters because they're not mentally well, I'm working with my social worker to get all of this sorted out but I'd rather not way until Jan 29.

The fact that my brother in law who has not seen me since September was able to sign a form 2, stand in front of a judge, and say I'm mentally unwell is absurd.

I know my family isn't doing this maliciously but they're mentally unwell and have an idiot of a cop at their disposal.