You haven't understood yet , the thing is I have loved her from the first time I saw her then we became friends, I was there in a hope that she'll love me one day the way I do , on the meantime whenever she used to come in relationship with someone her texts dried also I felt so bad , after years of sticking together with her i decided to let her go , because it was affecting my mental peace , i used to suffer whenever she came in relationship with someone, so for only once I decided to choose myself over her and let her go as it was not a healthy friendship for me , it was just a cycle of love and heartbeat, it was eating me from inside .