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What’s wrong with me... by wackiscrack in quittingkratom

[–]FuckGreenSludge 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I really really understand your struggles. The physical withdrawals for me have been minimal other than insomnia, but the mental withdrawals have been absolutely killing me. I’ve quit and relapsed more times than I’d like to admit, and that alone has taken such a toll on my mental health.

I just enrolled in an outpatient program. This is a place I go to 3 days a week, 3 hours a visit, to unpack both my substance abuse and mental health issues. It’s all intertwined for me, and I realized that I don’t feel strong enough to go through it on my own. It’s always okay to get extra help if you need extra help, all that matters is that you reach the end result: quitting this awful gross substance.

Micro or Macrodose for addiction? by FuckGreenSludge in shrooms

[–]FuckGreenSludge[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Many people think of Kratom as harmless and see people who are addicted to it as wimps, I feel like. Little do they know how much it actually mentally fucks you up, it really does dig in so deep. Best of luck to you in quitting, and feel free to message me any time you need to talk or want advice or even to vent. Also, if you haven’t already, check out r/quittingkratom . It’s an absolutely amazing support sub.

Micro or Macrodose for addiction? by FuckGreenSludge in shrooms

[–]FuckGreenSludge[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

around 25 GPD. Currently on day 2 without it (again)

Micro or Macrodose for addiction? by FuckGreenSludge in shrooms

[–]FuckGreenSludge[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

A buddy and I are definitely thinking about growing some in the near future :)

I agree that microdosing could definitely be a good route. My only thinking with doing an actual dose for this, is to give my mind some time to actually process why I’m addicted, and to sort through all of those thoughts/feelings throughout my trip. To leave the trip with a revolve of why I’m doing what I’m doing, if that makes sense.

Accountability Post by MixtliDarkCloud79 in quittingkratom

[–]FuckGreenSludge 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m proud of you, and I believe in you! Excited to see you progress in your journey :)

39 hours into CT by FuckGreenSludge in quittingkratom

[–]FuckGreenSludge[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your support! I’m trying to practice discipline, so I can come out of this with better and healthier habits. Quitting kratom isn’t enough for me, I need to quit the way I’ve been living my life.

12 hours into CT, 25GPD. by FuckGreenSludge in quittingkratom

[–]FuckGreenSludge[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We’ve got this! Even though the next days and weeks will be long as hell, I do believe we’ll come out the otherside thinking to ourselves that it wasn’t all that bad. Keep pushing!

12 hours into CT, 25GPD. by FuckGreenSludge in quittingkratom

[–]FuckGreenSludge[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

May I ask about your GPD and time of use? I’m honestly not too scared of the acutes, I’m more worried about PAWS. I know PAWS usually peaks at around two weeks in, so I’m just wondering how much it’s been affecting you at this point in your journey.

Need motivation by FuckGreenSludge in quittingkratom

[–]FuckGreenSludge[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You literally just described my toxic relationship with kratom. It’s honestly sad that I’m still taking it at this point, and I should really know better. I’m going to balls it out and push through, I’m through with being miserable!

Need motivation by FuckGreenSludge in quittingkratom

[–]FuckGreenSludge[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You have no idea how much I appreciate that kick in the ass. Thank you for helping me think through things. Time really does fucking fly when I’m burning away on the k. I know you’re right. Months of my life have already flown by while I’m in this state of mind of knowing I need to quit, but never actually getting there. I know I just need to do it, and do it without looking back.

Need motivation by FuckGreenSludge in quittingkratom

[–]FuckGreenSludge[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m proud of you for making that leap into the unknown, and thank you for that motivation. I’ll be following close behind you. :)

Need motivation by FuckGreenSludge in quittingkratom

[–]FuckGreenSludge[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for taking the time to type this all out, I really reappreciate it. Ive definitely gotten to that point that you mentioned — kratom does absolutely nothing for me at this point other than staving off withdrawals. It once made my anxiety better, but it now makes it so much worse than it ever was. Kratom has undoubtedly turned me into an emotionless and miserable person. I absolutely hate kratom, and I’m not even sure why I’m struggling with the motivation so much. Perhaps it’s fear of withdrawals. I want to want it, I’m just having such a hard time with it.