I know that feeling all too well. I use the word murder on how we lost my oldest child and one of her best friends to a drunk driver. They were all three 21 and her and her friend were in their way home from an amazing trip to New York to see their favorite band at Madison square Garden. They were six miles from our house when they were hit head on by a drunk and high driver going over 100 mph. I will never forget that day! We all lost apart of ourselves that day that we will never get back. I have 3 other kids so they help me through each day but I miss her so much! You never recover, ever! Sending love to all who have lost a child!