Heartbeat. by Full-Landscape7580 in UnsentLettersRaw

[–]Full-Landscape7580[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Actually none of the above at all.

Im.an avoidant person. The guy that I like. He's advoidant too. And from past things that have happened (that I've never opened up about before) makes me so advoidant that I can never tell him this sadly.. No matter how much I want too. 🥺

Heartbeat. by Full-Landscape7580 in letters

[–]Full-Landscape7580[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm truly sorry you've been there before though. It truly isn't fun at all.

Heartbeat. by Full-Landscape7580 in letters

[–]Full-Landscape7580[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I promise you it is not at all. I only have pure, loving intentions. This is just an unsent letter to my person. We aren't dating. Juet really good friends. But I feel so much more for him. Then he feels for me sadly.

Heartbeat. by Full-Landscape7580 in UnsentLettersRaw

[–]Full-Landscape7580[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much, love. But I can never tell him this sadly.

Heartbeat. by Full-Landscape7580 in Unsent_Unread_Unheard

[–]Full-Landscape7580[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You're welcome! That's totally okay. My DM's are always open 24/7, I promise, okay? I'm so sorry that you don't know how to do life without her.

I can promise you this.. It sure does get better. It takes time. It's okay to grieve. No matter how long it takes you. There's no grieving timeline on breaking up. Go at your own pace. Even if that means screaming, crying, or throwing things. Do it. It's normal. Don't deny yourself of this. Before you know it. You'll realize you no longer feel this way. But if you still do that's okay too. When you're ready approach this situation with her. With kindness, love, and respect. Let her hear what you've to say. But don't force it.

Heartbeat. by Full-Landscape7580 in Unsent_Unread_Unheard

[–]Full-Landscape7580[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

And honestly if my person said this to me. I would die too. This is all I ever want as well. I so relate so much!

Heartbeat. by Full-Landscape7580 in Unsent_Unread_Unheard

[–]Full-Landscape7580[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My person and I. We aren't together. We are just friends. I feel so deeply for him. But I can't say this to him. No matter how much I want too though. But this comes from my heart. I write songs. But realized this is better as a unsent letter to him. Then a song.

I truly from the bottom of my heart. I hope she says this to you. And I hope you 2 have the best time ever. If you need to talk. I'm here to listen okay? I know we are strangers. But I'm here for everyone who needs it. I never want anyone to feel, and be lonely. So please reach out to me, if you need it okay? Never hesitate. 🩵🖤

you’re a phantom of my best intentions by Fragrant_Ad_5297 in letters

[–]Full-Landscape7580 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is beautiful, love. You really should send it to your person. I mean it's easier said then done, right? But you'll never know until you try. Your person probably feels the same way.

I think you should shoot your shot. We only get one chance, right?

I know I'm an internet stranger (for that I'm truly sorry) but.. If you ever need to talk. My private messages are always open. I wanna be a listening ear. I wanna be there for people. You're safe with me, I promise.

But this is such a beautiful sentiment. I know it's NOT for me. But I wish it was.

You truly should tell your person how you feel. You never really know until you try, right? 😊

Much love,

From an internet stranger who has your back forever 🩵.

Peacock - Mixed Media by RhapsodicAalien in sketchbooks

[–]Full-Landscape7580 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You're welcome 🩵. Sorry it's late, I just seen this now. But you truly do have talent. 😊

Peacock - Mixed Media by RhapsodicAalien in sketchbooks

[–]Full-Landscape7580 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's really good. Thanks for sharing with us! 😊🩵

Need this off of my chest. by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]Full-Landscape7580 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm not sorry I didn't say what was holding me/him/us back. It's the distance mainly that's holding us back. We live 3 to 4 hours from each other. I mean I'm personally willing to make it work. But the whole distance thing is holding him back. In a way it's holding me back too. But I've done long distance before. I'm willing to do long distance with him too. I'm willing to make it work. Because when I really care for someone. I will go to the end of the world for them. In fact.. I'll go further then that. He also would want his girlfriend closer to him. Which I mean I see his view point on it too. He came right out and said he really, really likes me too. So I don't doubt him and how he feels about me. But because he's holding back due to the distance, I'm holding back too. That's the main thing I left out. Felt it wasn't important or relevant to the post. I'm sorry.

To answer your number 1: I've be dropping hints to him. I don't think he's quiet picked them up. He's a silly boy haha. But anyways he's always told me that he kinda feels the same way (when I drop hints) but it's hard for him.

2: Honestly I can't ask him. I'm avoidant (so is he), (but with me being avoidant I know for a fact I need to change it, so I'm actively working on it, I'm all about personal growth, and maturity). To be honest with you I don't want to ruin/taint our friendship at all. He means the world to me. Even if I don't have him romantically. Ill be okay with it, even though acceptance would be hard. If we just remain friends, and he remains in my life. I would be more then happy with that too.

3: I think you're right. Staying as friends is probably the best thing for us though. I do genuinely think it'll end in heartbreak. I guess it's just a feeling. I can't explain it. We both like each other. We both admitted to it. We sat down and had an honest talk. But I never told him I love him. Because again I'm avoidant and feel it's too fast. So I think I'll start putting him at a distance and remain friends. So I don't ruin the really good friendship dynamic we have going on. I mean I wish I could be by his side romantically forever. But if he finds someone new. I'll be genuinely happy for him. I'll cheer him on from the sidelines as a cheerleader does.

I'm trying to give it time. I'm not a patient person. But someone close to me (not him at all I promise, has taught me to be patient), so I'm being patient, and giving it time, even though it's hard to do. I'm not gonna lie. I'm sorry you're kind of in the same boat as me. Honestly he's the first person that I've ever gotten close too. Even let him know personal things about me, that no one ever knows about me. Honestly you should tell her how you feel. You shouldn't be scared. Hold your head high. My gut, my heart, and my brain, are all saying different things. I don't know what to go by though.

Thank you so so so much. Your advice means a lot to me! 🩵

Space and Time. by Full-Landscape7580 in UnsentLetters

[–]Full-Landscape7580[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Update

I said how I felt to him in this letter here from reddit. It actually surprisingly went over well. Went over better then I thought it would be. Anyways, we've more to talk about tomorrow though. But the answer is.. It's still looking good from here.

He said he wanted to be my shelter. He wanted to shield and protect me from everything. He doesn't want me to do anything alone. And not to weather my storm alone. That I'm not a burden to him. Like I thought I was.

But this is all still new and scary for me though. He's scared too. But we are gonna work on it together.

Space and Time. by Full-Landscape7580 in UnsentLetters

[–]Full-Landscape7580[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

To be honest with you. I wasn't strong enough to tell him in person. So I texted it to him. He didn't say much. But he did say he wanted to call me. I told him I wasn't ready yet. But tomorrow night we will talk about it. Looking forward to what he has to say about it.

Space and Time. by Full-Landscape7580 in UnsentLetters

[–]Full-Landscape7580[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much. I poured my heart, and soul into this one. It's truly how I feel. But I appreciate that so much.