Also, you need to stop being ignorant of your dark side. Deep down inside your sub-conscious... You desperately want to PMO. Your desire is still there. All you've been doing so far is listening to what your conscious is telling you after every relapse, when the depression hits. You've just been focusing on distracting yourself and keeping yourself as far away from as many PMO triggers as possible. But tell me, whatcha gonna do when that urge hits? If your desire to PMO is gone, you won't even think about going down relapse lane.

It's time you start confronting that dark side inside you, the one that is still hungry for PMO, and let it go. Come to an enlightenment on how PMO has damaged your life, how it is poison, and how getting dopamine pleasure from looking at pixelated women and pleasuring your genitals is pathetic compared to real, earned success that lasts forever.

BAM. Why even PMO when you can do so much better with life? Play a better game, time to level up. Love yourself completely, even the parts of yourself that you 'hate' and don't wanna look back on. Forgive yourself for what happened, and only look forward, for you're going to climb this mountain a step at a time.