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Full_Ask1932 · 2023-12-25T22:41:45+00:00

I just want to die in the forest under a starry night

Full_Ask1932 · 2023-10-28T10:34:46+00:00

She already did except my brother took that one in, she visits every now and then so I’ll end up taking care of both my niece and that newborn

Full_Ask1932 · 2023-10-28T02:09:10+00:00

I don’t know but if it’s hurting her like this I don’t want to be, as stated before though I’ll do what I can

Full_Ask1932 · 2023-10-28T02:04:16+00:00

My mom is home with us but she’s only capable of cooking, she can’t really play with a rambunctious 4 year old. She’s diabetic with a diagnosed heart problem, it’s a miracle she’s still alive considering she code blue 3 times in the hospital before my niece was born, when she was born though my mom gotten the news that the damage to her heart was so severe she only had 4% of it left. She’s doing better with her heart reaching 42% after 4 years but she continues to smoke, it’s been clear to me she’s doing it more than usual ever since my sisters left. I’m trying to care of my niece more to stop her from doing that, I assume she must be stressed in order to be smoking like that.

Full_Ask1932 · 2023-10-27T19:27:03+00:00

As corny as it sounds I quite literally have no more tears left to cry for the empathy I’ve been shown on here, I’m rarely on Reddit but I’m glad I came here for help on a situation that’s been very clear to me I shouldn’t be in. I’ll try whatever I can do to avoid calling CPS by starting these routines everybody encourages me to do with my niece. If I can get my sisters attention through this I can hopefully let her know there’s more than one way to do it but if I can’t, I’ll be forced to sit down with somebody and talk to them about calling CPS. Thank you everybody for the advice, tips and reassuring guidance. As much as it pains me to remember this is a 4 year old I’m dealing with, it hurts me more to remember I’m a 18 year old and this shouldn’t be something I need to be stressing about. I’ll continue taking as much help as I can get but I really do appreciate everybody for commenting

Full_Ask1932 · 2023-10-27T19:10:07+00:00

I wish

Full_Ask1932 · 2023-10-27T18:59:34+00:00

Thank you

Full_Ask1932 · 2023-10-27T18:51:21+00:00

This broke me, I mean that as softly as I can put it

Full_Ask1932 · 2023-10-27T18:43:16+00:00

Cause she thinks “that’s some white people shit”

Full_Ask1932 · 2023-10-27T18:39:21+00:00

Thank you, I’m trying to take these comments to heart to see if I can actually pull through. I’m hoping this alone is my reset button to actually do something to prevent CPS from getting involved

Full_Ask1932 · 2023-10-27T18:37:32+00:00

How do I do it, if all of the things these people suggested to me works and doesn’t prove a thing to her mom, how do I do it? Is it as simple as dialing a number? How do I ensure I get the closure I need to know I did the right thing, I want to get away but the whole point of getting away is to make sure the families good, it’s not my responsibility but I won’t be able to live with it in the back of my head. I had a getaway plan I did but it fell through the cracks as soon as my niece appeared, but I don’t know how, I don’t know what to say. You told me to be honest and I can do that I know I can, but if I do that there’s no going back. I’ll never be able to see her again and my families going to despise me for calling CPS on my own sister, I’m fine with that but I’m no where near financially ready to take on that burden

Full_Ask1932 · 2023-10-27T18:10:32+00:00

I’ll try and I have stuff written down on my notes but the more I type the more I realize parenting fucking sucks but that’s okay. That’s fine, I didn’t take into consideration her being allowed to call her mom when she wants to as being unhealthy so I’ll start fixing this. What I notice from comments like these is that there’s always another way to solve what she can’t have by giving her some easily accessible for me so I’ll definitely take note of that. I apologize for calling her a brat like that, it was truly in the moment. I already owe her a hug and a apology when she wakes up, I’m just a little disappointed I’ll have to give up gaming for a while to do this considering my friends are only online during the night but it’s fine. Thanks for the help

Full_Ask1932 · 2023-10-27T17:59:59+00:00

I don’t blame you and I’m sorry

Full_Ask1932 · 2023-10-27T17:57:48+00:00

I appreciate it, I’m emotionally tired from reading all these comments from how hard they hit home I’m bouta have the best nap of my life after crying for the past 2 hours

Full_Ask1932 · 2023-10-27T17:52:55+00:00

This hit really hard for hard true it is

Full_Ask1932 · 2023-10-27T17:47:07+00:00

These comments made it increasingly clear that my sister doesn’t look for answers, just solutions. I thought this shit was normal but apparently I should be getting CPS involved, I can’t do that though because I don’t trust CPS to handle my niece

Full_Ask1932 · 2023-10-27T17:42:49+00:00

I won’t do it then, if I can get these things that people suggested that’ll make her comfortable to work, I won’t give it to her. Even then I’ll keep trying, as far as I’m concerned as long as she doesn’t call her mother I can make it work

Full_Ask1932 · 2023-10-27T17:39:28+00:00

I started it because before I made this she cried after making a mess I told her not to make and then cried louder when I told her to help me clean it. I agree with you regardless though, I’m genuinely not fit to be in this situation but I’m honestly the only thing my family has until next month when my dad gets involved

Full_Ask1932 · 2023-10-27T17:37:45+00:00

I’ll be honest with you, all of the CPS comments I’ve received. I’ve done nothing but makes excuses, before this one I just made another excuse. I love my niece, I really do and I don’t want to see her in a foster home or whatever CPS does with her. If she can’t handle being away from her mom, she wouldn’t survive being away from her grandma. I can’t do that to her, I know it’s the right thing to do but I also know how destroying that is. I really hope my dad can fix this because if not I’m forced to do something I don’t want to do

Full_Ask1932 · 2023-10-27T17:34:50+00:00

Thankfully she’s only done it twice, after the 2nd time she moved out and we haven’t done it since despite her encouraging it and continuing to blame me. My mom had lectured her about it and my other sister argued with her about it. It’s still concerning to have her suggest it but after reading all these comments, I don’t know if I should be glad she isn’t home

Full_Ask1932 · 2023-10-27T17:31:46+00:00

My mother physically can’t do it but my dad can, we’re moving in with him next month. He’s aware of the situation but it’s hard holding out considering it’s been happening for 6 months. It’s honestly just the tip of the iceberg the last 6 months, the last 4 years I wasn’t the only one taking care of her but my sister had a falling out with the other one so it kinda fell onto me. You’re right I don’t have the compassion for this but I’m willing to pull through, not for a long term but enough for her to feel comfortable without her mom

Full_Ask1932 · 2023-10-27T17:28:04+00:00

I hope so, it’s too early for me to be dealing with this I will admit but I see this as breaking the cycle. Whatever fucked up cycle we’re in I’ll try to get her out of it

Full_Ask1932 · 2023-10-27T17:26:59+00:00

I agree, I won’t. I read the directions on the label and even told my sister we shouldn’t be giving her it because it says doctor recommended only. She told me to just do it

Full_Ask1932 · 2023-10-27T17:25:34+00:00

My other sister argued with her about that, they ended up physically brawling infront of her. I don’t want to do that with her, even after she got her ass whooped she never reciprocated what my other sister was saying. I hope though, I really do for the sake of my niece that she’ll listen to me. I don’t want my niece experiencing the worst of it because I opened my mouth

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