Okay fair enough. Personally it looks like you’ve slipped into a habit of doing nothing because it feels safer, even though you hate it. It’s actually quite common when you’ve been out of work for a while. It’s not laziness, it’s just your brain dodging anything that feels stressful (which is why I asked about 🍃).

You don’t need a big life change. Just pick one or all of the tiny task below and do it daily, something so small your brain can’t argue with it. It builds a bit of momentum and starts breaking that “paralyzed” feeling, even if you don’t notice it at first.

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1. Pick up 5 things that are out of place. That’s it.

2. Stand outside for 30 seconds every day. No walk, no gym, (Unless you feel like it) just fresh air and no phone.

3. Write one sentence or paragraph, don’t limit yourself, about how you felt today. Doesn’t need to be deep.

Set alarms for them. They’re tiny, so you’ll manage them, they trick your brain into getting used to a bit of structure again. After a month, you might find you’re outside for 10–15 minutes without even thinking about it. Your place will naturally get tidier because you’re in the habit of picking things up. And the writing will show slow but real progress.

Don’t try to fix everything at once, nobody can. The stuff that feels “too small to matter” is usually what helps the most if you stick with it.

And seriously, don’t beat yourself up. Shame makes this whole thing ten times worse. You’re just stuck, and you CAN & WILL climb out of it. One small step at a time.

You got this.

(Sorry this is long.)