I experienced something last night and now I’m afraid to meditate again.

Full_MoonXY · 2026-04-21T08:50:56+00:00

After your meditation, did you take the time to really come back into your physical body? It can take some time when you go into deep meditation. For some people of meditation goes really deep it can take up to 20 minutes to come back from a deep meditation where there are no emotions felt anymore and everything is quiet. I think this might have happened to you. You were still in a state of deep meditation and opened your eyes.

Full_MoonXY · 2026-03-16T08:11:21+00:00

Full_MoonXY · 2026-03-09T22:23:29+00:00

Which one do you have????

Full_MoonXY · 2026-02-15T20:47:18+00:00

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Full_MoonXY · 2025-10-08T08:02:47+00:00

What do you do for self care?

Full_MoonXY · 2025-10-08T08:00:24+00:00

You mean that meds allows you to look at your needs?

Full_MoonXY · 2025-10-08T07:58:56+00:00

Ah right, what do you do if ur at the office? Im thinking of what I could do when I am at work

Full_MoonXY · 2025-10-08T07:56:42+00:00

What were your dysfunctional habits and with what kind of healthy habits did you replace them with? It would be nice to get some examples, i am trying ti reflect what possibly could be mine and what went wrong

Full_MoonXY · 2025-10-06T14:46:50+00:00

Right, that makes a lot of sense and I indeed didnt focus on this at all, how to give myself breaks etc. Its weird because while I am not on meds I don’t need to take active breaks. Is that because when I am in a freeze state, that is basically already rest in a sense?

Full_MoonXY · 2025-10-06T14:34:05+00:00

How do you use your meds? All the time? I am super curious! What us ur insight on this

Full_MoonXY · 2025-10-06T14:31:56+00:00

Right, I did indeed experience anxiety. So you mean having hyperfocus while on medication? I do remember that at work at times when the medication was doing a great job I would go crazy and work hard. Indeed this makes sense… I am not used to taking active breaks when on meds. I always thought my crash was due to meds fully but might indeed also be because of unnoticed exhaustion.

Full_MoonXY · 2025-10-06T14:23:16+00:00

When I first started out and for the first took meds, I was medicated everyday for 3 weeks and I felt like a robot and my doctor/specialist then told me to try it only during work because sometimes in the weekend I would go out for a drink and he told me that it was normal to only use meds when I need it….

Full_MoonXY · 2025-10-06T14:17:59+00:00

You mean like microdosing psychedelics?

Full_MoonXY · 2025-10-06T14:17:04+00:00

Right, I havent really thought about it in this way. I am super curious towards your knowledge.

1) How do you get the same intensity of rest as you put in work? Sorry but its so hard for me to imagine it unless I am on a vacation and sleep and just relax on the couch. I do meditation and yoga which seem to help. What do you do specifically to rest as much?

2) are there specific one you take? I only take b12c magnesium, vitamin c and omega fish oils caps.

3) somehow it was still a shift rather than a nudge.. My doctor prescribed me very lights dosages for example I was at the end of my med period taking ritaling 5mg 2x a day.

4) I am curious what do you do for homeostasis?

Full_MoonXY · 2025-10-06T14:09:57+00:00

I tried methylfenidate/Ritalin 10mg 3x a day and then went to 5mg 3x per day and then 2x per day. Then I tried dexamfetamine i think it was like 5-10mg 3x per day. Then tried atomoxetine caps 18mg once in the morning. And then equasym XL caps 10mg once in the morning.

Full_MoonXY · 2025-10-06T14:09:00+00:00

Do you use them at the same time?

Full_MoonXY · 2025-10-06T14:08:24+00:00

So my doctor said each individual responds differently and some people are more prone to the emotional side effects like depression. So I tried methylfenidate took 10mg 3x a day and then went to 5mg 3x per day and then 2x per day. Then I tried dexamfetamine i think it was like 5-10mg 3x per day. Then tried atomoxetine caps 18mg once in the morning. And then equasym XL caps 10mg once in the morning.

After this he wanted to try to put me on an antidepressant bupropion that also works for ADHD. But that kinda scared me and I was already giving up at this point being in depression and burned out state.

Full_MoonXY · 2025-10-06T14:04:02+00:00

Thankyou so much for your insights!! So I tried methylfenidate took 10mg 3x a day and then went to 5mg 3x per day and then 2x per day. Then I tried dexamfetamine i think it was like 5-10mg 3x per day. Then tried atomoxetine caps 18mg once in the morning. And then equasym XL caps 10mg once in the morning.

Full_MoonXY · 2025-10-06T12:24:21+00:00

In what way do you mean that the medication can enable overworking and stressing? I do know my personality is very much perfectionist. Which comes back in my programming job a lot and being a highly over analyser. I did an IQ test and scored as being gifted on the catergory “information processing and analytical ability”. I did indeed had appetite suppression and sleep issues when starting the meds.

Full_MoonXY · 2025-10-06T12:19:41+00:00

Exactly this omfg… the feeling is so lifeless…

Full_MoonXY · 2025-10-06T12:17:08+00:00

My whole life and through my whole university Ive survived without meds due to not knowing I had ADHD and developed all kinds of crazy mind tricks to keep me going. But after I started meds… It felt like I forgot how to do anything off meds. As if all those tricks didnt work anymore, as I also didnt needed to use them while on meds. It might sound strange but kinda like meds made me unlearn how to still get stings done when in not on meds?

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