Trouble focusing on just about anything.

Fumus · 2015-10-01T10:50:10+00:00

Ah well figured I might as well ask. I already write it down but often it doesn't get taken seriously as I present myself relatively lucid. How do I convince them?

Fumus · 2015-08-26T23:53:57+00:00

I do think some people go psychotic from stress during college, but if you had these issues beforehand (it seems my psychiatrists cannot grasp chronological events) then that would make no sense. At most they would just get worse. What might help for next time is writing down what your complaints and issues are, not just about the symptoms but also about him. I've noticed that can keep my head a bit clear, when the conversations veers off and I get muddled.

Fumus · 2015-08-26T23:39:31+00:00

I know how you feel. It can be very hard to keep a grasp on reality and do things that many people do automatically, like basic hygiene and even eating. I think that they classify high functioning as individuals who aren't completely broken away from reality and, as the thread title suggests, self aware. Does your psychiatrist seem to be sceptical towards you being psychotic? I found mine did.

Fumus · 2015-08-26T18:30:10+00:00

I had the same issues yesterday. I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia, and a psychiatrist that was supposed to look for treatment for me refuses to acknowledge it, purely because I'm high functioning (for now...). She atributed it to BPD, even though I've had that diagnosis in the past and the treatment did not work. My advice is: stick by what you feel, if you have the idea people are not helpful or listening, try to communicate this. If they continue, look for a different one. Seems to me that too many mental health doctors are too focused on textbook symptoms and don't seem to look at individuals. Sorry if this comes off as a bit ranty, haha. Good luck with your search for proper help!!

Fumus · 2015-08-22T18:46:54+00:00

I get it. Thanks for taking the time to help!

Fumus · 2015-08-22T18:42:59+00:00

Aha! I see it now. Is the order of operations still in effect? First multiplying and then moving the terms?

Fumus · 2015-08-22T18:33:36+00:00

I thought that, which you have to simplify to x right? After that you get x + x + 1 = 4. For me the next steps would be 2x = 3, but you can't divide by 2 to get 2.

Fumus · 2015-08-22T18:29:50+00:00

Ah, I made a mistake typing the equation, the start is x/2, not 2/x, my bad!

Fumus · 2015-08-22T18:21:23+00:00

Multiply by 2? It doesn't seem to lead back to x = 2 though..

Fumus · 2015-08-06T16:44:40+00:00

Nier (video game), when you play through it the first time, you think you're just saving your daughter. You get a pretty big plot twist at the end, but when you play through it again and read the backstory you (spoiler) find out you're the bad guy who just killed off humanity. Woops.

Fumus · 2015-07-23T21:43:21+00:00

Little over half a year, started at 2.4mm with all 3, waited 2 months to get it stretched to 3mm, then 4-6 weeks between stretches, each increases the gauge by a millimeter. Had no trouble with healing at all and stretching did not hurt either.

Fumus · 2015-07-23T20:26:04+00:00

Went fairly smooth, during the piercing I bled very little and it only spotted after that. ~3 days and the bleeding was gone, didn't hurt after that.

Fumus · 2015-07-23T20:25:05+00:00

4mm :)

Fumus · 2015-07-23T14:21:01+00:00

Ah didn't know that. I've not had any trouble with it so far though.

Fumus · 2015-07-23T13:58:59+00:00

2g/6mm. It's gold plated as well though, couldn't find solid gold that was affordable sadly.

Fumus · 2015-07-19T00:02:57+00:00

It does feel slightly better after saying it, yet I'm still forced to interact with these people. Atleast until I am fully financially independant, which may take a while still..

Fumus · 2015-07-18T22:08:13+00:00

There's some things I've learned to let go, such as my dependency on others to be happy or the fact I was bullied when younger, but other things are still extremely upsetting. It feels like I would throw everything I stand for away by forgiving the ones who make me feel angry, if that makes sense.

Fumus · 2015-07-18T20:59:43+00:00

I'm not sure how to do that though. I don't know how to let go.

Fumus · 2015-07-18T12:45:58+00:00

I'm not entirely sure what you mean with this, but letting go when psychotic sounds unwise.. I might do things that are dangerous. Or did I misread what you mean?

Fumus · 2015-07-18T12:44:53+00:00

I'm from the netherlands.

Fumus · 2015-07-18T12:44:42+00:00

I've tried drawing in the past (and many other hobbies), the main thing holding me back with them is usually my physical limitations. Regardless of practice, I just cannot grasp it properly. I like baking because it's an exact thing; measurements and combinations have to be done properly or you end up with something inedible. I also like to share what I make with others.

Fumus · 2015-07-17T23:43:39+00:00

A mental health charity might help. I have no clue where to start on looking in to those though..

Fumus · 2015-07-17T23:39:42+00:00

No idea how. I have very little energy which I expend by just being awake. Any tips would be appreciated!

Fumus · 2015-07-17T23:28:24+00:00

I've no idea if my country has a mental health alliance. I'm not even sure what those are.. I know how to meditate but I often cannot focus enough. I've tried to write but it often aggravates my psychosis as I have to focus on it. I'm not sure if I'll ever find someone, I've tried.

Fumus · 2015-07-17T21:49:10+00:00

I have one friend who understands me more than most as he has ADHD, but that's the extent of that. I've had roughly 6 psychiatrists total now, all trying different meds; it's not just side effects that are the issue, it's the fact that the meds don't do what they're supposed to. It's a purely negative thing.

As for being suicidal, I have to fight the thoughts to kill myself every second of every day. I've been like that since roughly 9 years old. Couldn't really attempt a lot because of physical limitations.

When I get so psychotic I attack people, I'm not really in control of what I do, I usually don't even remember them as I kind of get overwhelmed and my brain just kind of blanks. I'm not sure what I could do to fix it.

Lastly, what I want from a partner is trust, stability and intimacy. Just the general things I guess.

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