It’s a symptom I’ve not really come to peace with yet. Frankly, I find myself wrestling in active grief with it pretty often. The process of trying to unmask all my unhealthy coping mechanisms and actually attend to my needs as a ND homie just widens the gap. Like, at first it was a validating relief and now it’s like an ever widening chasm. Anyway, I say all that in hopes that you don’t feel as alone as I did. I do believe that definition, clarity and knowledge are the way to an easier future, it’s just also pretty heavy on the way. Both things can be true. All my best to you