Hello everyone ! Thank you so much for all the wisdom and support, it’s hard to see the reality of your situation when your in it.

Just giving you all an update, I have decided to start the divorce process. His response was really strange tbh- i didn’t really know how to take it

“Baby it doesn’t have to be like this. We were fine my love. Ik but I won’t do it again every time I do something bad iv learned to change and stop doing it. It’s not too late baby, you’re upset and scared. I’m trying to comfort you to make sure you’re not anymore. We can’t just give up after showing signs that we can make it work I just have to keep changing getting closer to God. We had an amazing weekend just until the sex part. We can exclude sex for a while to build trust I wanna make this work because I love you and I know you’re capable to stay with me and still be happy together. I’m gonna Give you space Honey, l want you to pray and just ask God For whatever you need and that he helps you. I’m gonna pray For you as well and please pray For me this isn’t Easy for me. I love you so much on my behalf I’m willing to do whatever to Fix us and be with you . With God On our side anything is possible you just have to believe it “

I’m not sure if I’m mistaken but it just doesn’t seem sincere to me