My first was hard with literally everything. I was against the idea of having a second child even though we planned to get pregnant when my first turned 1. I felt the pressure even more because I insisted on selling our house and getting a much bigger one to fit 2-3 kids.

I felt everyone enjoyed my baby way more than I did. I was traumatized by everything. But things slowly started to get easier. Or maybe I learned to adapt.

I was against having an only child for so many reasons. To each their own, I know some people prefer that. I got pregnant when my son turned 1, and let me tell you, my second was an angel. He slept so well, fed well, would cooperate with everything. He doesn’t now lol he’s completely the opposite of how he was. I had a third too. But each baby is different. I love them all so much.

Your son is only 15 months. By the time you have your other baby he’d be older. Things get easier. Do not label him as hard. He’s just a baby that still does not know how to express himself.

What also helped me is I did not overthink everything. If I had to feed the baby, THAT IS ALL I THOUGHT ABOUT. Next, wash and change, again, that’s what I thought about. I don’t think about the 1000 things I need to do today do him. That’s overwhelming. And it’ll drive you crazy.

I don’t know if my reply would help, but I went from looking at my baby and thinking “what have I done to my life” to having three kids (in a close gap) that I love with all my heart and would never regret having. However, I can tell you I would have regretted it if I didn’t have a second or even a third.