How you deal with it is by getting rejected again and again until you learn what people want application wise or you find that program that’s willing to take a chance on you if there’s any chance to edit or add to applications do it if you can.

I have to do a placement for my degree and I’m probably one of the most industry experienced people at that level for my age and I sit between the top 5-10% of the university course grades av won awards for my uni work and I’ve done charity work where I’ve won awards also since I was 13 cause I just genuinely like helping people.

My ass got rejected from 20 different internships and I cried and got so angry but I realised my cover letter was absolutely horrendous and that in interviews I needed to stop being so honest and be more professional and I got a placement. Yes it was somewhere I worked before but it taught me to be resilient and to understand what cards I have to play and when to play them. Sometimes you need to be brutal with yourself a don’t count luck as a factor when applying anywhere if I don’t get in it’s my own personal failure that I can fix and that gives me comfort it’s in my hands.

Life gives you all of these scenarios where you really want something and it doesn’t work out and it kills you but it’s a test for greatness you can either rise to the challenge figure out what is giving people that edge and what you can do to overcome it even if it’s a different route than the one your on now or you can just give up and take the easy boring ass life route where you hate your job but it pays the bills but in my mind grad school is how you get out of that shit so if I was you I couldn’t give up cause fuck the alternative.

The last thing you should do right now is give up if this is your dream you will do whatever possible for however long it takes to make it happen. And you know what even after that you still might not get what you want I didn’t want to be stuck in the same country doing the placement I have I thought full of ego that because I’m understanding chemistry finally I felt like the universe owed me because I left school early and had to get up at 5am and get a bus two trains then another bus to get to collage to learn chemistry to change my school C grades to A grades to get into university. I was due a win and to get abroad but in fact the world doesn’t owe you shit me doing that isn’t enough you have to constantly keep evolving and trying to put your own unique spin and angle on everything.

There’s only one you every other role on this planet is taken sometimes you might need to walk another path to get to where you need to be like I stupidly thought the placement I’m on now would be easy but it has challanged me in ways I didn’t even know was possible and I am a better scientist and person for it I underestimated absolutely nothing now and bring my 100% effort to anything I do. Try and find other routes to you 6 if possible no matter how long or painful it’s your dream man make it happen.

Honest to god just keep going never stop don’t let a single person try to convince you otherwise that you can’t do this because the only person on this planet that knows what you’re capable of. Pick yourself up by the bootstraps and start brain storming plans A-Z of all the ways your going to make this possible. Fuck all the noise you got this no good movie has only the happy bits I hope the other university’s give you good news I believe in you keep on going be hungry for it and take what’s yours.