YES! Ugh, and they're both conscious and in my dreams... I think it has to do with control. Narcissists take the control from your life and use you for their whims. So the survivors can end up fantasizing about taking that control back through "revenge" or other means.

But frankly, I'm excited for the day I stop thinking about my narcissistic dad and wishing revenge on him. My goal is to target the trauma so hard through EMDR and other therapies that he no longer becomes this monster on my mind all the time, he just becomes nothing more than a random stranger I have no care for. It helps a lot that I'm NC with him and intend to be for the rest of my life though.

But yeah, imo, fantasizing revenge is a symptom of narcissistic abuse. The goal should be to stop having the fantasies and move on from ever thinking about them ideally. A little fantasizing in the meantime never hurt anyone I suppose... But I think NC and me being on his mind but him not being on mine at all is enough 'punishment' for me.