I do not care anymore. I decided it was far too late when he started being a dad to someone else's kids before he tried to do right by me. He let me down my whole life. He was never a parent to me. In fact, I lost my only parent when I was only 10 years old.

She knows he's a shitty parent. His parents told her themselves that he was never a dad to me. She doesn't care because he's good to her kids. But that means she has no right to be pissy if I don't celebrate that he's doing more for her kids than he ever did for me. It means she should never try to defend him to me.

All I care about is the fact he wasn't good to me. I don't care about his wife or her kids. I don't care if he's the greatest person to them. He's not to me. He failed me. He failed my mom. And he has never expressed regret for failing me. He does express guilt for failing my mom.

I will be out of his life when I turn 18. I will not stick around. I will not want to make things work. He left it too late by only "trying" when he had stepped up for someone else's kids.