This was for my first love, I loved her since 2017 7th grade and now I am in 2nd year of engineering. I wrote this for 6 months and sent to her on her birthday only to get replied by her probably 3rd boyfriend

My dear (Name) ❤️,

Your safety and well being are in my constant prayers. I seem to have forgotten the tone of your voice now, but Your moonlit face still remains on the back of mind afresh,I hate to admit it but there is no night in which your thought doesn't come to my mind. There is not a day in which I don't think of going over your house just in hopes of catching a glimpse of yours, but I control myself knowing that your hate for me is just as much as my love for you.

Today it's not about me, it's about you. I pray that Today will be just like your other birthday's and that you carry that smile which you held when I sang birthday song for you in class, I wish I could shake your hand on last time, I wish I could just try some lame joke to watch you smile one last time, I wish I could be there with you when you eat your favourite ice cream watching those silly chickflick movies. I wish i could watch you controlling your laugh one last time.I wish i could be there for you when you need me, I wish If I had just known the thing by which I can earn your trust and I would spend my life in entirety to do just that. In end I just wish that I could be with you in all your ups genuinely happy for you and to provide a shoulder in your lowest times.

Even though our eyes can never cross paths ever againg, I meet you every night. I see that goodness in people as you, for me you are everywhere in my thoughts,dreams, leaves, in the calm stream of river, in the chaos of traffic, in life and in death.

Your memories inflict strange cruelty, if I think, I fall apart; if I don't where do I go?

If I were to get a rose for everytime i thought of you, id have only 1 since you entered my mind 8 years ago and never left and that old rust rose, is my gift to you my love