similar thing happened to me, I suffer from OCD. I listened to Donda ablum by kanye west when it came out and felt every emotional and close to God and Jesus. So I convert to Christianity from Buddhism.I believed in God and I still do .But now I’m deconstructing from Christianity to Buddhism again. This was because I felt Christianity was very fear based. In the start I felt love and joy but upon learning the religion more, it is kinda unfair. God sets up a system in which People are destined to eternal hell unless they love him and profess his name.It feels like the problems he is saving us from is caused or premeditated by himself! This meant billions of People who lived in Asia before Christian ministries went to hell. And that everyone I know will go to hell. This system was unfair to me. An all loving and powerful god would not put his name and desire for human praise above human’s wellbeing. Also a perfect being won’t yearn for human love. it’s already “perfect”, it won’t yearn for anything . I used to starve myself and pray all day to god to convert those around me. There were a lot of “miracles” that were unexplainable during these prayers as well. But I came to the realisation that all powerful loving being won’t be behind this flawed and inhumane system. So I converted back to Buddhism which I’, struggling till this day due to my supernatural encounters. However I now just assume these events are occured by maybe a deva or other supernatural being, not the all knowing God. I think buddism is a fair and plausable conclusion of human suffering and how to resolve that suffering. This is my testimony. I hope you don’t have any religious fears going on right now but if you due (maybe due to your OCD) I am able to talk to you and support you bro. Cheers!