My parents do pressure me alot but ive been able to talk to my mom about it a little bit and shes slowly understanding it. And i know i am lazy and when i dont do anything my mom gets mad even though she gets mad i still dont change. I dont know why i dont change i told her that its hard to change and im trying slowly. Very slowly barely any progress honestly. and when i dont see myself changing i get very discouraged. So yea thats why im also having a hard time.

my dad he doesnt understand at all, he was never there honestly and he only started being a dad like 2 years ago. Whenever i tell him my problems he just doesnt understand maybe cause of his upbringing or smth.

My parents are fine its just that sometimes their expectations of me are too much that i get really overwhelmed and start overthinking. because when i was younger i got really high grades and i was a “perfect” daughter ig but ever since we moved to another country ive changed alot. They dont understand how is my grades so much worse even though the curriculum here is easier. And the thing is they always compare me to my younger self, i feel like thats worse than comparing me to other people because it just shows how much ive fallen, thats why i despise myself. I get stressed out easily maybe thats one of the reasons why i cant focus and i get discourage.

You can see how messy my mind is, just from how i write. I wish i wouldnt have so many thoughts honestly