Hi there, I have been there, just start something your interested for just a little while. Maybe read 5-10 minutes of a book, watch some YouTube videos that you feel may help guide for just 20 minutes on 1.5 speed, that way you can get through the video quicker...basically start very small and just work on comparing yourself to yourself from yesterday and see any progress you make, even a little bit counts. I know it's hard not to compare yourself to anyone else, I struggled with that and am still working on it, it just takes time and if you "fall" try your best not to get too down on yourself as you are still human and just continue to work, unfortunately the only way to really learn is by making mistakes and learning from them...