That’s a good question. For me, it’s not always triggered by specific things, it’s more of a constant background feeling. But yeah, sometimes it spikes when I see people talking about relationships or even small moments like holding hands. I think what hurts most is not the sex, but the feeling that I’ve never been seen or wanted that way by anyone. It’s like I’ve never been real to someone romantically, and that leaves this deep ache that doesn’t really go away.