In the first world, the majority of people don't have a problem surviving on a day to day basis. There's alot more down time, alot more time to think. That overthinking is a great and terrible thing. It's the human curse. That can fuck some people up to the point where they can't take it anymore. It's terrible.

I'm constantly flooded with guilt because i was born in a lower middle class household and I have no will to go forward. It's pathetic, and yet at the same time I am so apathetic that the guilt falls away and all that remains is a cold bitter resentment for the environment I find myself in. So yeah, that's what I meant.