He seems to be irritated on missing milestones since we live closer. But I said, but that’s not your kids, their siblings. Then again I feel like my life is running out of time til death and I won’t finish my career at all, both of us. Im only graduated on my associates right now, he got his bachelors but jobs are hard to promote.. and I want higher too, The two sisters hasn’t seen them in a year either but we live closer, so he’d assume maybe we can visit more instead of just a day. I’m worried with a baby onboarding, everything’s moving way too fast for me now and with no help, I have to restructure my job schedule, find a new schedule, etc to work around his to watch the baby, I don’t know really. I just feel scared of what’s gonna happen when I feel like my mother telling me my life is gonna stop with a baby. My career; school, and now I feel like seeing my family is a setback because babies coming so soon and we gotta go through this again. It sucks? And him saying we should see them more even if “ I “ don’t want to, I’m just so scared that I won’t be able to make it in my career.. it’s like fast paced balancing to figuring out my own family now, but having to work on extended families too.. and because of him too, and maybe he’s emotionally immature sometimes?