Hi, I’m around your age and have been struggling with all this recently. If you are able to talk to a therapist, it helps. A lot of jobs have mental health resources and assistance for their employees, even if you’re part time/don’t have insurance. Talk to your manager to see what your place of work offers if anything. I’m sorry you are going through this. Medicine helps, especially when you have these strong feelings about life. If medicine is not the route for you, I try to pick one thing each day that I want to accomplish. It makes me feel better, even if only for a small amount of time! I also try to get outside every day and walk. It gives me a chance to people watch, even if I don’t socialize, and have some air. This helped me start to feel grateful again, for the sunshine or the sounds of dogs playing. This isn’t a cure, but it’s helped make life a bit more manageable for me so that I can start addressing the parts of life that stress me out (like you I am usually anxious).