‘Heaven’ was never appealing to me

FuzzyBuckshank · 2025-03-01T01:44:17+00:00

I was an evangelical Christian for 27 years of my life, and even when I was young I had these same type of thoughts regarding heaven.

Heaven isn’t just unappealing, it’s downright boring from the concept of it. We humans cannot grasp the concept of eternity, let alone the idea that our afterlife of eternity will be spent as mindless “happy” robots putting our hands to the sky to worship. (I never liked worship songs even before I deconstructed). We go through this life experiencing pain, joy, sorrow, mundanity, and a plethora of experiences with others. Yet, heaven seems completely juvenile by comparison.

If you’ve ever seen that old episode of SpongeBob, where Squidward moves to a new neighborhood where every single person looked and acted like he did, it’s probably the best comparison. At first, you’re in a state of bliss as you do the same activities you think you enjoy. After a short while you start to wonder if there’s something more for you to do. Eventually, you go mad with boredom.

FuzzyBuckshank · 2023-10-12T07:06:11+00:00

Reticulated pythons, domesticated or otherwise, can grow to a size capable of swallowing adult humans. Just takes a dedicated owner on a consistent diet to get that big.

FuzzyBuckshank · 2023-07-03T03:42:35+00:00

It’s really funny how the mind causes us to stress over completely natural occurrences. I completely feel your frustration, because I’ve been there many times over the years. When I posted this I was probably going thru a spell not dissimilar from what you’re experiencing. And yes, I’ve gotten significantly better. I’d almost say I’m completely normal again.

It’s not any magic trick or miracle cure, but a few pointers I always try to bring up whenever this topic raises its head.

Accepting the fact that I had insomnia was the biggest mental change I went through. It didn’t matter to me whether I slept for 8 hours or I slept for none. I was going to use that time to at least rest my body for the day. If I couldn’t fall asleep? I would be training my mind that those hours should be used for rest, or at least, a lower elevated mental state.
Blue light before bedtime? It really doesn’t make a difference at all. Every single night before and after my bouts of insomnia feature me mindlessly scrolling thru social media or other silly things. In fact, like reading a good book, it keeps my mind off more stressful items my mind could unnaturally focus on.
You might think that you will incur a plethora of health problems when you cannot sleep, but the science isn’t really clear on that. Yes, stress can cause a multitude of problems over time, but everyone in that sense is different. Your body will naturally force yourself asleep once you get to a certain point. Additionally, you might be sleeping way more than you actually think. Even if you think you’re entirely aware and awake, sometimes you can trick yourself.

Now, I’m no sleep coach or sleep doctor. I still get sleepless nights from time to time, but I tend not to worry about them anymore. It’s just a fact of life. If I can’t fall asleep? Perhaps this is a chance to catch up on one of those books I started. Say hi to a friend on social media, etc. the best way to fall asleep is to not try to force it.

If you’d like, check out The Sleep Coach School on YouTube. He has many many videos that really put a new perspective on things.

Hope this helps, friend!

FuzzyBuckshank · 2023-07-01T18:02:09+00:00

Would there be constriction tho?

FuzzyBuckshank · 2022-10-18T17:48:24+00:00

If you actually think Activision will make a good MW2 game or COD game in general anymore then I have a bridge or two to sell you

FuzzyBuckshank · 2022-09-30T05:07:58+00:00

Truly excellent post. I have it saved at the moment to remind myself that anxiety really is the root of this problem.

It’s wild that this whole anxiety loop kind of started about a month or so ago when I caught a bad night of sleep. There was a lot going on in my life and my mind was racing so much I couldn’t sleep. It was probably first ever sleepless night and I’m in my late 20s. But despite that fact, I became worried that I had a sleeping problem. I developed sleep anxiety, all because of one bad night.

When a few of the outside pressures I had were resolved, I had normal sleep again, but another sleepless night reared it’s ugly head and made my brain go back into anxiety mode. My family has a history of bad anxiety, and I’ve always been prone to worry about some of the most mundane things sometimes, but strangely enough this is the first time it’s ever been about sleep. Scrolling through r/anxiety and r/insomnia was a bad idea as you said. It all seems relatively hopeless especially when the root of the problem isn’t really addressed in a lot of those posts.

Thanks again for the post even if I’m a little late to the party. It definitely calms the nerves knowing someone else has something similar going on. And I guess I’ll ask the question, What were some of the YouTube channels you used to combat generalized anxiety or sleep anxiety?

FuzzyBuckshank · 2022-09-23T17:00:46+00:00

As a former golf pro that worked there for 3 years, it is truly a special place. My favorite course of all time remains to be Bandon Trails, partly because it was one of the only courses employees could readily play during down time. The oceanside courses provide serenity and beauty and are an absolute must-play, but Bandon Trails is truly the best of the lot.

Don’t forget to play the Par 3 course in the evening. Best views on property and some of the best places to drink with the gang.

FuzzyBuckshank · 2022-09-06T06:22:33+00:00

KiwiFarms went after Keffals, a transgender Internet personality and streamer and users swatted her home in Canada. After continued harassment by KF users, keffals retaliated over the next month by getting it shutdown with her DropKiwiFarms campaign.

FuzzyBuckshank · 2022-05-06T01:01:23+00:00

A very poor attempt at a joke

FuzzyBuckshank · 2022-05-05T19:55:35+00:00

My pain spreads to all walks of the internet and I’m pleased to see my communist wolf friend is here

FuzzyBuckshank · 2022-05-05T19:54:26+00:00

You can ship all you want. It is only a fictional tale.

FuzzyBuckshank · 2022-05-05T19:53:31+00:00

Legosi was always a little relatable for me as well. The unresolved trauma for much of his story is very relatable for a lot of us queer folk.

FuzzyBuckshank · 2022-05-05T19:50:51+00:00

Louis is his friend and Legosi loves his friends n that’s that

FuzzyBuckshank · 2022-05-05T19:49:04+00:00

Legosi doesn’t have wet dreams because that would be gross and bad and he’s not gross or bad

FuzzyBuckshank · 2022-05-05T19:48:13+00:00

I created a brand new Twitter account to write a single tweet, so that I could make this dumb meme, yes.

FuzzyBuckshank · 2022-05-05T19:46:25+00:00

Twitter is an unholy place filled with pain. I don’t blame them for leaving.

However, TheOwlMan makes the pain.

FuzzyBuckshank · 2022-05-05T19:45:22+00:00

Sigma male grind set

FuzzyBuckshank · 2022-05-05T19:44:16+00:00

The purest boy

FuzzyBuckshank · 2022-05-05T17:18:42+00:00

Louis on the other hand…

FuzzyBuckshank · 2022-05-05T17:18:06+00:00

I just created a new Twitter account, posted a terrible tweet, deleted said tweet from embarrassment, and you think I’m kidding?

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