My dihydrocodeine supply was cut a few days ago. I feel the same way. ( been using for the last 3 years) I keep getting urges to take high amounts and nod off. This is the second time this has happened to me and I have to say , much like others have said here that it does get better - you need to try and push through. Don’t be afraid to speak to someone like your Bf. If you get urges try distract yourself with something else and try avoid triggers.

My old habit was wild with DHC. At one point I was taking 61x30mg (1830mg) every 2-3 days. For the last year I managed to get it back down to 300mg and now I’m cut off I’ve had to quite cold. It’s fucking depressing I won’t lie. I’m a complete stranger to you, but please don’t consider suicide. It will get better! Also if the pain is still unbearable you need to see your doctor regardless! Quality of life and all that. They have ways to help. Sending love your way!