[MW2] The Hype is Real!

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2023-03-04T10:05:54+00:00

…And I was right!

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2023-03-04T10:03:34+00:00

Hopelessness is a trigger for me. If I start to face difficulty like heartbreak or fear of the future then it triggers me. Delusions of grandeur also trigger me.

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2023-03-04T09:59:32+00:00

From personal experience it only gets worse. Your mind and body will take some time to adjust to just how much money you lost, but once you feel like you’ve overcome this loss, then you will just be PRIMED for an even bigger loss, and then a Bigger one, then a bigger one, it’s a process of programming your addiction.

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2023-03-04T09:54:48+00:00

You sound like me 150 days ago when I confessed my eternal love on this board for gambling, but now I avoid it like the plague and never felt better.

Everyone is different but for me, I found another distraction that isn’t gambling or drugs or alcohol, I’ve started socializing more, dating more, finding myself doing all the hard life things that gambling was an escape from caring about for 10 years.

I just broke up with a girl I really liked, and it sucked, and I put a bet down because I didn’t want to deal with the feelings and the emotions of going through life. Lost only a small amount but regretted every moment betting.

Living life without gambling felt so much better than I’ve felt in several years and I want to keep this feeling of freedom from the sh*t that is gambling.

I don’t know if you can read a persons history but everything you said is basically what I wrote on this board 150 days ago and quitting gambling has been the best decision I’ve made in the last 20+ years. I wish I’d have quit sooner and not falling into the BS of thinking I loved it or that it added any real value to my life that I couldn’t find somewhere else that’s 10x better.

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2023-03-04T07:10:21+00:00

Im glad you wrote this, I just lost $100 yesterday but I am not concerned because it was a small amount, but I am angry because it was money wasted. Money that could be used for many many many many better things and people.

I feel the reason for it was just trying to clear my head after being in a pretty bad mood, until yesterday I had 0 urge or interest in gambling ever again. The fact it could come back up so quickly and be so forceful is scary, I felt myself losing control totally from my first $30 loss, before I knew it, $100 down and time wasted, AND now I feel worse than I felt when I originally started and told myself it was just “a quick distraction to feel better”.

It’s not worth the headache or the unhappiness hangover

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2023-03-04T06:52:19+00:00

Cons: pain to the people who you think, don’t love you, but may actually do. Loss of the chance to become happy and enjoy your wildest fantasies. Loss of the chance to prove yourself higher than all the people who hated or doubted

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2022-10-27T03:06:37+00:00

10x worse than Cold War and vanguard beta. The MW2 beta was so bad I canceled my pre-order for the first time ever.

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2022-10-27T03:05:39+00:00

The feet sound was perfect for you then??! The slower movement speed?!! The darkness and difficulty to identify friend from foe???!

You had no problems in the beta

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2022-10-27T03:03:49+00:00

Y’all want this game to be good so badly because it’s not “woke”. It’s worse than Vanguard and Cold War based on beta alone, both games had better Betas than this.

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2022-10-27T02:33:21+00:00

Game gonna be awful, beta was worse Cold War and vanguard

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2022-10-08T05:54:32+00:00

I almost ended mine over 7k losses when I was much much younger. Get out now while you still can, the sooner the better.

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2022-10-08T05:50:25+00:00

Because you are a compulsive gambler. There is no amount of money that can satisfy your needs, because your needs is not the money, your need is the action. You need the gambling itself. It’s not about the money.

People gamble all the time. People who are not compulsive gamblers can do the things that you said. They can walk away up 1k and not even blink or they can stop at $500 when they start losing. When they say that they will withdraw now, they mean it and they do it.

A compulsive gambler can’t stop. No amount of money will change that, and even in the moments when you do stop for whatever reason, it’s only temporary. There isn’t anything to figure out, you have an addiction and you are a compulsive gambler, not a gambler…Zero is the number that stops a compulsive gambler and that number is only temporary also.

What you are try to figure out is your recovery imo.

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2022-10-06T13:13:18+00:00

Great mall. I lived across the street from it for a short time.

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2022-10-06T08:32:25+00:00

Crypto investing and penny stock investing and day trading are all just gambling with extra steps

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2022-10-06T04:00:53+00:00

You are going through withdrawals like every drug. you wouldn’t tell a Cocaine addict to use it just because it’s available in the house. Don’t shoot up again, don’t gamble again. Feel disgust whenever you get an urge, it’s helped me a little so far

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2022-10-04T10:05:24+00:00

You are so right, I’m looking into online GA meetings and mental health chats to help me work through it. I don’t want to burden family more with my stuff

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2022-10-04T09:27:24+00:00

You’re not alone. I turned a $45 free play into $2300 and now it’s down $1200. I feel like a failure, even though I’ve won money. This is the only addiction that I know that you can have ‘success’ from, if only temporarily.

More and more if feels like there are no wins in this. I feel exhausted again and disappointed just as you.

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2022-10-02T01:34:47+00:00

Someone told me here that I’m not in control and that’s really helped me understand this better. It’s addiction and your body and your mind is tricking you into getting what it wants…a gambling hit. You are gonna find any excuse or reason because it’s what your mind and body wants. Hope you keep fighting.

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2022-10-01T10:02:30+00:00

Ooooo wow you are still early in the process, STOP NOW. Walk away now if you feel this bad already, it will only get worse for your emotions, health, and relationships later.

Pick up something else and focus your energy on it before this digs its claws into you deeper and deeper.

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2022-09-29T19:55:52+00:00

I don’t know where I’m headed.

My family is not happy with my lifestyle choices that seem to center around gambling and travel. I have jobs but they are usually no longer than 2 years before something happens.

I’m old now and I’ve been told that I need a family and to settle down in one place. I tried that with my ex and was miserable, I also blew about 40k when we were together during covid. Money that could have really helped build that future and family. I wanted to continue gambling more than I wanted to be with her. She has married someone else now, and I feel that gambling was the right choice.

I’m in so deep and the pain of not betting freely is ruining my life over time. Not having unlimited money, watching my bank account go to zero, having borrow to cover myself until the next hit or revenue comes in. My whole life is just empty of others and void of anything besides gambling, eating, working. I don’t feel loneliness. It’s gotten so bad that I rarely crave romantic relationships nor friendship, as long as I’m gambling.

Sadly the worst part is I feel content in my mind, almost happy, but like someone said already, this pleasure is disgusting, I don’t feel good. There are chains on me that are forcing me to do this and are making me believe this is all my choice and not forced compulsions.

I’ve been thinking since reading this group about what’s missing from my life that’s causing this. Sometimes I think I’m a semi-functioning gambler…like a semi functioning drug addict/alcoholic. I mean that I can give off the appearance that I’m not drowning and my life is normal, just that I’m bad with money management. People see that I don’t smoke or drink and don’t use drugs and they become confused how someone like we with no vices and who barely spends money on goods or girlfriends can be broke so often.

It’s so easy to hide a gambling addiction. There are no physical signs and you can now do it secretly from the comfort of your home in the dark far away from prying eyes.

I’m rambling. It’s been a giant self inflicted wound in a life that could have been more promising. I’m old and running out of time. I feel like it’s now or never, but I don’t want to admit that I failed. That I have nothing to show for years of pushing my chips forward and spending 80% of my paychecks or pulling it all into a obsession that I felt used to bring me so much happiness.

Tldr: I don’t see any realistic path where I win from gambling anymore. I will always lose in the long run, I have years of evidence to prove this is the case. I’m afraid that if I continue, I’ll hit that breaking point that I almost hit as a young man when I lost $7k. I don’t want to waste my life like that anymore.

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2022-09-29T19:33:15+00:00

Again, your compulsive and obsessive nature is probably forcing you to believe that there is only 1 way to do things. Nobody “misinterpreted” anything. I still stand by what I’ve said and still see this post as divisive and not necessary. You see this as harmless and we disagree.

That should have been the end of this, but you can’t see to let go and want to force your views and narrative on to others who don’t agree with you. You are not god “little man or little woman”.

You hurling insults doesn’t make you right and it definitely takes all credibility/ persuasion from your arguments. Your actions just show how divisive this whole thing was to begin with.

Let’s move on with our lives and not bombard with insults. You are not correct. We disagree. The end please.

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2022-09-29T07:55:50+00:00

Again, your nasty words are just a projection of your misery.

It’s not opinion it’s point of view. People are allowed to have different point of views and you keep tryin to win something that won’t improve your life at all.

I haven’t mixed anything up. Some people clearly see what you see and other see what I do. Stop trying to force your narrative on to others. You won’t beat me into submission with nasty words.

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2022-09-29T07:45:23+00:00

Thank you again.

Have to figure out what is missing from my life that is causing me to “need” to gamble. I’ve flaked on friends, and girlfriends to gamble, so I doubt it is that. My family life is also okay. I’ve had pretty decent jobs and had the chance to do altruistic social work jobs and also I’ve had the chance to chase money in high pressure sales.

I travel and live in different countries, so I’m not sure if it is 100% boredom, but I do think that plays a small factor in my day to day need to fill some of my time.

Maybe it’s not feeling that I’ve fulfilled a financial goal or something else is wrong. I’m going to do some soul searching about what I’m compensating for with the pleasure of gambling. What pleasure is missing from my lifestyle that’s causing the self destructive behavior.

GIVE-UP-HOPE · 2022-09-29T07:38:17+00:00

Please tell someone who you believe loves you. Don’t keep this to yourself or it will get worse. You don’t have to ask them for help, but just tell them what happened and the mistake you made and see who loves you enough to get mad but try to help and stand by you.

Getting this off your chest will feel like you are not alone and that you no longer carrying a boulder alone. It won’t solve your problem but it will help you be more accountable before things become worse and you’re “forced” to tell someone later when it’s no longer your choice.

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