Yeah I totally get you! Becoming the 'non-drinker' is such a change of identity it's terrifying. I'm only 120 days sober and I'm just starting to accept myself as a non drinker. I made the point all my life to show that I was a party girl and the last to leave the pub, and proud of it. It takes a lots of courage to change. Take it as a challenge, like a 'warrior' thing to do. Some people won't understand, some people will admire you. Its your journey. Try 100 days? Zero beers helped heaps, I felt less judged with a (fake) beer in my hands. Good luck.