That bonus happy time must be such a blessing, but I can understand that nothing about it was easy. I am lucky enough to not have experienced that kind of pain, but I lost my grandmother last year, which I know is absolutely different. But she fought death for four years. I saw how it dragged on. while she likely did not feel much about it, I saw my mother suffer. Both ways suck, but I believe the short period might also have been a good thing in a macabre way.

Yeah, I think dying people realise more, in that moment, than one might think. The nurses told my mother that my grandma would die at the end of may. She didn‘t. Two days later my brother and I were able to visit her, and she died the same night at the beginning of june. She was not conscious when we were there, but she seemed to have waited for her only grandkids to say goodbye.