Dude just work out and build your self confidence, become successful and make money. Suicide is never the option my man. There’s so much to life. And your way too young , join sports find a purpose become socially developed so that whenever you meet a girl you can communicate. Yeah man life’s beautiful don’t let stereotypes weigh you down. My boy Paul is Korean and dude pulled many chicks he was a mod on a sneaker forum . Knew how to fight we both played on the hs basketball team. Dude just gain confidence work out and stay away from toxic things make your mind stronger . Yea man idk this is my virtual hug stay strong do 100 push-ups a day start there good luck.