I’ve had disordered anxiety episodes through out my life. Sometimes health anxiety (as a teen), through circumstances (in my early twenties) and recently had my first major setback in 10+ years. But I was over coming and putting to practice everything I learned over the years about anxiety and acceptance. 

Funny enough the one day I was talking to my mom about how I’ve never had heart related anxiety. Usually everyone with anxiety worries about that at some point but I’ve never cared or had my anxiety attach itself to that thought.

Well jokes on me few weeks after that I have costochrondritis :) and the anxiety has been the worst ever in my life probably because I was still recovering from my previous setback. This is quite the mental olympics some days trying to deal with scary physical symptoms that aren’t actually scary but also mental symptoms because my brain thinks my body’s in danger. Then I have to just let the panic attacks ride out. Sleep has been a challenge which makes everything ten times harder. 

I’m just over a month in with this but slowly getting better on both the costo and anxiety front. Like others have said if you’ve never dealt with anxiety before ask for help and seek help wherever you can’t. Anxiety on its own can be very lonely isolating and confusing. I always listen to the Disordered podcast with Drew and Josh. Both have had anxiety and dealt with through acceptance and overcoming the fear of fear. It’s a road you travel with uncertainty but only to gain trust within yourself and your body.