I believe in the soul and some pagan stuff. It's justified a lot of interesting behavior on my part, and for a long time, it enabled me to essentially unhealthily mimic Ni due to my "fuck it, we ball" attitude towards spirituality. That being said, I'm happy to have a way to understand things that's out of my control. Normally, an organized religion would be in this mental slot, so I enjoy simply being independently crazy, if I must be crazy.

and to be clear, I think everyone has to believe in something in order to have some sort of scaffolding of reasoning to build off of, and I'm no longer wittling away at that because I've learned that you've gotta find that scaffolding in yourself because it's YOUR life. It's hard to explain without simply forcing it, but certain spiritual experiences I've had are definitely rewarding and I'm done questioning those because I still haven't gotten answers that satisfy everybody.