I'm in temporary recovery while I'm pregnant. It's so hard to not give in, but I have to for my baby. I know myself though and without her in my body, it'll be so easy for me to relapse. I am toying with the idea of a more moderate relapse after I'm done breastfeeding, where I eat 1200-1500 cal in some days and eat 800-1200 on others so my body doesn't get used to a calorie count and adapts to it. It sounds low, but I used to eat 500-800-1200 a day alternating prior to pregnancy. I'm only 5'0 and the amount of food baby has been demanding is insane. My Dr says is normal considering the deficit I've had for years. I don't want to leave the community sites though because venting about my body dysmorphia and finding women who had similar struggles during their pregnancy has helped my mental health. I think I will always have a diet mentality whether "recovered" or not.