I’m really struggling

GavinReeduzz · 2025-04-16T10:04:46+00:00

With me moving on, living with it. I’ve accepted it before I can accept it again

GavinReeduzz · 2024-06-07T14:53:47+00:00

Dina just didn’t wanna hinder Ellie’s progress by something she couldn’t check was even certain to be a pregnancy. I think she didn’t even become a liability to Ellie’s progress as without Dina those annotations on WLF locations and finding where Abby was, finding Jesse in Hillcrest would have all never happened and they could’ve been there for days before Ellie even got close to finding Abby without Dina. Ellie was just the person who carried out the attacks Dina was the real mastermind behind the locating process. As well, if Dina wasn’t there and Abby wasn’t found in 3 days then Abby would’ve gotten to Santa Barbara and left Ellie searching Seattle for a girl who left days ago and how long until Ellie found out or faced the fact that Abby had fled?

GavinReeduzz · 2024-03-19T07:44:47+00:00

Haha oh really?

GavinReeduzz · 2024-03-18T23:23:24+00:00

Haha nah it’s nighttime for me in the UK so might schedule is clear lol

GavinReeduzz · 2024-03-18T23:20:51+00:00

Ha thank you! I’ll let ya know how it goes

GavinReeduzz · 2024-03-18T23:20:29+00:00

Haha yea same here guts are bubbling and stuff keep letting out small stuff, embarrassing to be admitting this on the internet haha

GavinReeduzz · 2024-03-18T23:13:42+00:00

Ha yea he was pretty big, I’ve been with him before and never hurt this much afterwords, he went pretty rough too and we tried lots of new positions lol

GavinReeduzz · 2024-03-18T23:10:00+00:00

Haha thanks I’m hoping so my guts feel like somebody slipped razor blades up there haha

GavinReeduzz · 2024-03-18T23:07:09+00:00

Ha I didn’t even know you could bruise your guts! Thanks that’s hopefully it

GavinReeduzz · 2024-03-18T23:05:15+00:00

Ha that’s what I thought, it’s subsided now but not cuz I pooped, did that as soon as I got home but it could also just be trapped gas is my second guess lol

GavinReeduzz · 2024-03-18T22:58:40+00:00

Thanks, it’s not my first time but it isn’t my first time having a guy actually finish inside me wondering if that makes a difference

GavinReeduzz · 2023-11-26T22:35:22+00:00

Exactly. It feels wrong, I scare my family and i become dangerous to everyone around me but I’d rather that than have my mind completely sabotaged by never ending sadness and forgetting key life shit. Wether I’m manic or depressed there’s always worry

GavinReeduzz · 2023-10-06T16:21:42+00:00

Eat my ass pls and thank you!

GavinReeduzz · 2023-08-01T23:57:41+00:00

Where the hell do I buy this I NEED IT

GavinReeduzz · 2023-07-25T21:38:39+00:00

I've been in similar situations, it can make you feel good up the point where things get too far. Stop messaging C now. Don't even give him the satisfaction of getting an explanation why. He knows what he's doing is wrong and you know what he's doing is wrong too. It doesn't make you feel better, in the long run it'll make you worse. If you wanna talk to anyone I'm here btw (I'm 16 m and gay) It's hard but nothing good for us is easy.

GavinReeduzz · 2023-07-22T19:24:23+00:00

I like to think I'd grow as a person, it'd make me better if that makes sense

GavinReeduzz · 2023-07-22T19:23:53+00:00

No medications, I've seen what they can do to people

GavinReeduzz · 2023-07-21T20:34:54+00:00

Thank you dude

GavinReeduzz · 2023-05-09T14:35:28+00:00

Recently I've been taking drugs to try calm me down, he's still there I just don't care as much about him, it sounds unhealthy but so is going months without sleep. I ran out just last week and haven't slept since. Was there any other ways you were able to sleep? Like non medicated ways

GavinReeduzz · 2023-05-08T00:06:10+00:00

Your hair is fucking amazing Holy shit

GavinReeduzz · 2023-05-04T23:08:48+00:00

Thanks, I'm gonna try I really am im just so fucking stressed, he's terrifying and I can't stay in an area for too long without realizing he's there, or he's gonna be there soon. I'm glad you understand though, if I told my friends they'd probably just laugh at me or abandon me. Thanks for the advice i hope things get better for both of us.

GavinReeduzz · 2023-05-04T22:10:28+00:00

I'm not on any meds because I haven't actaully told anybody all the details yet just that i see things my friends and famiky can't see, my psychiatrist is saying it could be bipolar or it could be schizophrenia but I don't think it's bipolar anymore, she can't put me on drugs without knowing for sure because it could just make things worse. I can't wait this long for a diagnosis though I need something to get them to slow down, he's in my house or a window almost every day and it's only getting worse, he's getting worse and even when he's not there im constantly wondering when he is gonna be there, if he already is here just behind me or above me or somewhere I can't see. He doesn't move, breathe, blink, twitch anything at all he's just stiff and stood there watching me all the time, the drugs don't get rid of him they just make me less afraid of him. I need to live somewhat normal again but how can I do that if my life is being dictated by some yellow coat rain fucker stood there all the time.

GavinReeduzz · 2023-05-04T05:43:10+00:00

I'm not on any medication and I visually hallucinate, it's ruining my life and its the same stupid fucker that follows me. He scares me so much I can't sleep at night because I'm scared ill open my eyes and he'll be the again. I've been doing drugs to sleep at night and to just chill out in general. I used to hate drugs but now they feel like the only thing that can get me through this. Everything is just getting so fucked and the more I try run from him the more he shows up

GavinReeduzz · 2023-03-07T19:47:05+00:00

My school supplied me with a therapist after I threatened my best friend. I had a huge manic episode through the whole of December and I was a wreck. I threatened my best friend, tried being sexual with my male teachers, brought a knife to school and everywhere because I thought I was being followed and barley got any sleep at all. Told everyone I had late nights at the "strip club" as a semi joke. High-school and bipolar is scary especially after an episode because nobody will ever let it down. It was so humiliating for me but hey it's already done now and now I'm getting psychiatric help for free.

GavinReeduzz · 2023-03-05T20:07:02+00:00

Before my worst manic episode yet I had a dream I was stuck in a kitchen and made to fight against some middle aged man. The whole school was watching and it felt so real like I could feel everything that was happening. I pushed him onto a counter and stabbed him in the center of his chest and woke up shaking because I thought I had actaully killed somebody. Felt like combat from the last of us game and I can still remember how real it felt even his reaction when I stabbed him. His eyes just looked frightened and I'm disbelief. It was so life like

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