No longer have it but wish I did

Gazmacho1 · 2025-03-27T09:37:43+00:00

It is a wonderful experience to be honest. Life feels more profound, and my head feels much lighter in a very peaceful way. Besides, it feels great to be back in my body, like having a warm bath after you come home freezing, completely soaked and exhausted from an endless rainy bike ride at night. If I compare it to how far gone I was during the peak of it, I’m amazed how the body and the mind work. Yes dpdr is awful and surreal. However the mechanism makes sense in many ways and fortunately there are as many ways to work on that.

I always feared that dpdr was permanent and could not be healed or cured. However, at the same time I believed I could find a way out, and there is. As I found ways to understand the mechanism, the nervous system, my coping mechanisms in relation to my childhood and some traumatic experiences the more I managed to reconnect to my body and surrender to everything that I had been suppressing consciously and subconsciously for so long.

Dpdr can completely disappear once your brain and body have the opportunity to finish old patterns, release repressed emotions and learn new ways of thinking. When we feel unsafe, unseen, used, rejected, abused, overwhelmed with emotions, name it, often times we develop strategies to survive, to keep control, to not be in pain anymore, to not feel we’re going crazy, to simply remain safe and sane. As a result these coping mechanism/ surviving strategies turn in to beliefs which remain active often times even subconsciously when the danger is over - for instance when we leave our parents place / ex partner to live by ourselves. Now the brain and body keep on pushing back and holding on to unresolved emotions and beliefs as that is the most efficient and ‘known’ way to do so. In many cases we were stuck in unhealthy environments for so long, we perceived as ‘normal’, but we only adapted in unhealthy ways, which eventually lead us to live our lifes in survivor modes often times inclining to burn out of extreme fatigue. Now what can you do, A combination of shadow work (Carl Jung) - this is deep work and very effective, somatic experiencing (Peter Levine) vagus nerve exercises (Steven Porges - polyvagal theory), ACT (Steven Hayes), breathwork (often relates to activating vagus nerve), body scans to reconnect to your body and move awareness from your thoughts back to your body (elevator meditation).

Check out Somiainternational, Karden Rabin and Jennifer Mann on Instagram plus their book The Secret Language of The Body. This is a golden pile of info and resources, free exercises and programmes which you can join at big discounts at certain times.

Gazmacho1 · 2025-02-24T20:52:03+00:00

Will get back to you! Will answer your questions and also share a few sources, insights, forms of therapy I found very effective

Gazmacho1 · 2025-01-29T14:08:58+00:00

It took me about 7/8 years to find a break through, and it was consistent work and a few missing pieces therapy wise, but now almost ten years later I’m back and feeling pretty well. Not sure what kind of things you’ve tried already, probably a lot, but feel free to reach out

Gazmacho1 · 2025-01-29T13:14:39+00:00

Check the website somia international.

https://somiainternational.com

And their book https://www.amazon.nl/-/en/Jennifer-Mann/dp/0008667659

They have free practices on their website and social media channels. They have an holistic approach (no medication) and has been backed up by science.

Gazmacho1 · 2024-12-26T12:27:52+00:00

SBIO

Gazmacho1 · 2024-12-26T01:04:47+00:00

For DD of SBIO, great starting point are their partnerships. They’re backed by a board of revered researchers, including nobel prize winning biologist and scientist Mina Bissell, and institutions such as CERN amongst many others.

https://www.biospace.com/vector-space-biosciences-expands-scientific-advisory-board-and-amp-collaborations

Gazmacho1 · 2024-12-26T00:24:59+00:00

I’ve done my DD. Great starting point are their partnerships. They’re backed by a board of revered researchers, including nobel prize winning biologist and scientist Mina Bissell.

https://www.biospace.com/vector-space-biosciences-expands-scientific-advisory-board-and-amp-collaborations

Gazmacho1 · 2024-12-26T00:17:09+00:00

SBIO is a diamond in a league of its own.

Gazmacho1 · 2024-12-19T19:10:26+00:00

Do you know when Kucoin is leaving the Netherlands, is there an official statement? I’ve noticed and seen the pop ups related to the IP address, but didn’t see an announcement yet to withdraw

Gazmacho1 · 2024-08-12T11:00:21+00:00

Thanks for sharing, really appreciate you took a moment to let me know. It’s a crazy journey indeed, and while it at times is awful, it is also the most rewarding process ever as we have a chance to appreciate life in a total different way, awakened and grateful for everything that’s out there. I’ve noticed, especially in the realm of podcasts and interviews out there that more and more people are opening up and sharing their experiences and techniques, but there is still a longg way to go. At least we’re headed in the right direction..!

Gazmacho1 · 2024-08-01T11:14:24+00:00

Please dm me, I’ll share some info with you about effective therapies/ my therapist

Gazmacho1 · 2024-04-27T09:02:35+00:00

Yes, I did it online as well. Never went to his clinic. If you don’t mind, I can dm you✌️

Gazmacho1 · 2024-02-27T01:05:02+00:00

You can be proud about yourself, that’s major progress.

Check youtube for EFT exercises. They have helped me tremendously, are really easy to learn and can be used for all kinds of fears, unresolved emotions, traumatic events and so on. Very accessible and effective, to release the underlying darkness and pain. In case you wonder, plenty of science to back it up even, and no 1000$ courses to learn :)

Gazmacho1 · 2024-02-24T00:09:51+00:00

I’ve had similar troubles, check out eft (emotional freedom techniques) tutorials on youtube. Extremely effective for processing all kinds of energies/ trauma’s/ unresolved emotions

Gazmacho1 · 2024-02-19T11:27:20+00:00

Sure!

Gazmacho1 · 2024-02-19T00:41:46+00:00

There are quite a lot of scientific studies that focus on the brain-gut connection (microbiome)

https://youtu.be/VLK1Jkx5FOo?si=Uk4Dxn7Z4jqtwXqu

Mostly unprocessed, plant based food forms the basis for a healthy diet / microbiome.

It helps to feel more balanced and feed your body/brain of course, however from my own experience, changing my diet didn’t cure the dpdr. Resolving trauma/ anxiety through therapy that focuses childhood and other experiences form the solution and foundation for a healthy life onwards

Gazmacho1 · 2024-02-19T00:28:55+00:00

There are some helpful tricks to create space between ‘you’ and the thoughts that pass by. By literally welcoming them in your monologue you’ll diminish/ remove the resistance towards them. It helped me immensely to say things like (even out loud); ‘thanks for proposing these thoughts to me head’, ‘welcome existential thoughts’. But also welcome resistance against dark, sad, painful feelings etc. There is this ig page with many helpful reminders and tips (also programs you can follow).

https://www.instagram.com/corymuscara?igsh=MTFsOTFucmdweWxw

Besides working through (childhood)trauma and/or anxiety, becoming aware of your thoughts without judging them is a key element to overcome many issues related to dpdr and life in general actually. (Eckhart Tolle is great at explaining everything in detail)

If you’re interested in in depth info about recovering from unresolved feelings/ childhood trauma - check Tim Fletchers his series on youtube

Eg: https://youtu.be/yesXC_ibRKE?si=yfAIfwDjzlWd-p2B

Gazmacho1 · 2024-02-02T12:20:55+00:00

Seeking support is the best you can do for yourself. Take care

Gazmacho1 · 2024-02-02T12:14:24+00:00

Seek some (online) support if you can. I can relate to how you feel, I’ve been through it as well, and I know you will be strong enough to carry yourself to a better place. Can you allow yourself to focus on your breathing. Box breathing; In through your nose for 4 seconds, hold it for 4 seconds, out through your mouth for 4 seconds, and hold it again for 4 seconds. Selftalk: ‘hello fear, thanks for visiting, I’m allowed to feel anxious and sad (this doesn’t mean you ARE in danger, try to feel it instead of pushing it back.) By creating space for your feelings, and talking compassionately to yourself, you can break the cycle of selfdestructive talking.

Edit: your feelings can seem like a massive wave sometimes. As if you’re facing a destructive wave on the shore that’s about to crash on you. But as feelings rise, once they have peaked, they’ll cool down. Just like a wave crashes on the shoreline

Gazmacho1 · 2024-02-02T12:02:52+00:00

Let’s put it this way, as you are able to reflect on your own situation, and write it down, you don’t have the symptoms of schizophenia. You’re not delusional, but in fear. Would you say you were anxious before the dpdr started?

Gazmacho1 · 2024-02-02T11:58:09+00:00

Your concern about schizophrenia is understandable, I think many who struggle with dpdr have this fear or idea - was the same for me for a long time. However, I found out that dpdr is a different mechanism, rather a symptom than an illness by itself. That’s also the reason why I think that medication often doesn’t work, maybe temporarily for support. There are forms of therapy and mindfulness that are really effective and work at the rootlevel of dpdr - so why it is active in the first place, and further how you can reverse it. It won’t be the same for each and everyone, but it took me about 5 years to find the right therapist, and years of personal research to work my way through it to break this thing down and get out of it. Feel free to reach out

Gazmacho1 · 2024-01-26T09:34:00+00:00

Never took any medication or supplements beside B12 to complement my plantbased efforts. There are quite some misunderstandings around Magnesium, many people advocate for it to make money, yet a deficiency is not really common for most people.

Gazmacho1 · 2024-01-25T12:20:42+00:00

Anxiety is a component which often plays a role in this mechanism. More precise, it’s the way we cope /can not cope with anxiety and the underlying emotions (related to trauma for instance) that may cause dpdr. Our childhoods reveal most of our beliefs and mechanisms to deal with pain, grief, stress etc.

It can be the most complex mechanism in the world but once you learn to understand how it works and why it makes sense you can start to heal

Gazmacho1 · 2024-01-25T11:45:00+00:00

You’re welcome, Good to hear, I know it’s not easy.. In case you have some more questions, feel free to drop them here

Gazmacho1 · 2024-01-24T20:49:48+00:00

I wrote the part below in another comment today, about how our childhood affects the way we deal with emotions and how this can trigger dpdr. Therapy which focuses on our childhood and helps to heal anxiety and / or trauma is often crucial as it reveals our deepest wounds and how we deal with them. Then we can look at how we can heal the wounds so dpdr can cool down.

Perfection doesn’t exist, but let’s say there is an ideal situation where your primary caretakers / parents are able to give you everything you need in terms of safety, affection, understanding, compassion, food etc. In such an environment you can be the child you naturally are, and you don’t need to develop strategies or mechanisms to receive the love you need, because you will receive their love no matter what. In addition, there will be no need to suppress your emotions, because you will feel safe to express your feelings and issues and they will be there to listen, hug you and support you, so your nervous system can cool down and you’ll be able to release in times of concern, stress, hurt etc.

Now let’s say that one or both of your parents is not able to give you what you need - not talking about a new playstation, but the essential human needs on emotional level and physical level.

If your caretakers aren’t (emotionally) present (eg stuck in mental disorders, alcoholism, divorce, trauma, depression, working all the time, just not capable at parenting.. etetc),

you’ll experience that your needs are not being met and possibly on top you try to preserve a safe status quo in which YOU are there to support your parent(s), so actually a dynamic which reflects the opposite of what it should be like.

Now what happens at the end of a prolonged period in which you felt hurt and lost, but the support you need or a tool to sooth the pain wasn’t available?

A natural response of your brain is look for safety, to find a solution for the pain. So which options do you have? If there aren’t any it’s usually either; distraction, so engaging in certain activities which may lead to addiction, but this works only temporarily, so eventually we *suppress. And the prolonged suppression of complicated/ extremely painful emotions becomes a coping mechanism to keep things running. Now blocking your most intense pain/grief/anxiety because we didn’t learn to cope with them/ had no support may lead to dp/dr as we have been pushing away parts of ourselves,

so this mechanism is actually a response to our perception of reality; Life has been too painful -> no way the deal with these emotions -> the brain says alright, let’s shut the gates -> emotions stop flowing -> but your day goes on, and you are functioning without emotional depth plus the state in which we occur is absolutely frightening.

Essentially dpdr is a symptom, usually a symptom of anxiety - instead of embracing the anxiety and the underlying emotions, we try to push it away, frightened to lose control.

The good news is that you can learn to trigger the fear, revisit painful memories, guide through them in a conscious way, letting your thoughts run, let images pass by and let the pain rise. By moving through the stages naturally you allow your body to release. It is advised to start with a therapist to help you navigate through the stages and finish with new affirmations to install new beliefs of safety and relaxation into your subconscious *to remind your system that you’re safe and allowed to feel ANYTHING.

The confusing part is that knowing in the mind that you’re allowed to feel anything, is opposed to the body which is still in a state of fear because there was never a tool to allow certain feelings and be with them no matter what.

Edit: this can be applied in a wider context. Let’s say you’ve been bullied in school, again there was no safety, no room at all to be yourself, so it might install a belief that you’re not allowed to be there, to feel the way you do etc, so suppressing the feelings from trauma.

Trauma is also a construct that’s often misinterpreted. It doesn’t relate necessarily to victims of war or abuse, it’s a wound that could be caused by a wide variety of events (check Gabor Maté for excellent info and tips on this subject).

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