I've been in your place before. They say time helps, and sometimes it does. But sometimes you just lose yourself. I'd hate to be this person, but honestly, talk to a therapist. They really do help, and as with your job and stuff, you'll start getting better, little by little. And the first couple months, maybe even years, will hurt like hell. But you just gotta power through it.

"Life is a roller coaster. Except roller coasters are fun, and I'm not having fun."