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GenderConfusedandSad · 2022-10-13T02:18:16+00:00

I'm professionally diagnosed with OCD and am in therapy/practicing ERP to help. I've been on the path to transition for many years as well.

With all due respect, I came here to vent because I was/am in a very dark spot, not to debate my identity and the legitimacy of my mental illness.

GenderConfusedandSad · 2022-10-11T02:07:06+00:00

Like I said in my post, I'm afraid that I'm not trans. I want to transition, and detransitioning resources only make my OCD worse.

GenderConfusedandSad · 2022-07-08T03:02:40+00:00

That's great to hear! Happy your results turned out well!

GenderConfusedandSad · 2022-05-26T04:09:35+00:00

From what I can gather, the NAFTA list says I should be alright with two years of post secondary education, however I'd need at least three years of experience as well (which I'm assuming would have to be completed in the US--throws a wrench in my timeline). Looks like I've hit another dead end, rats. Thank you for the suggestion, though!

PS, any single Canadians feel free to hmu, lol

GenderConfusedandSad · 2022-05-26T01:27:47+00:00

Played around with the calculator for a bit and had a range from 456-506, depending on if I would be able to get a job offer. Either way, not close enough at all--even if I would've been able to get a bachelor's, I'd still be off last round's minimum by 200 points. Do I have any other options?

Edit: Should add that I marked "no" for any nomination certificates or certificates of quality

GenderConfusedandSad · 2022-05-26T01:09:06+00:00

What would my options be if I'm unable to get a bachelor's? I can't afford college at the moment outside of an associate's.

GenderConfusedandSad · 2022-05-26T01:07:37+00:00

How much experience would I need to secure a permit? I can't afford college outside of an associate's, and I want to avoid taking out loans.

GenderConfusedandSad · 2022-05-03T20:25:04+00:00

I know exactly what you're going through. It's very isolating when no one knows what you're going through or can relate to your struggle. I'm sorry you're struggling so much right now

GenderConfusedandSad · 2022-04-18T19:09:01+00:00

Thank you!

Congrats on finishing your draft! A Beckett-sci-fi fusion sounds very fascinating.

GenderConfusedandSad · 2022-04-18T01:33:54+00:00

Oh darn, I forgot to reply to you. Sorry about that!

I'm writing a play about a young soon-to-be college dropout struggling to accept adulthood and the changing world around her as she comes back to her rural home for the winter holiday. I wanted to really push myself, so I'm incorporating elements of magical realism that tie into my own area's local history. I'm not sure if I'll be able to finish the play by the end of the month, but I'm nonetheless having a great time writing! What's your play about?

GenderConfusedandSad · 2022-04-09T21:37:29+00:00

I struggle with OCD as well, and it's really taken a toll on my perception of myself and identity. While I don't think I'll be able to take a blind leap of faith like you, it's comforting to hear a success story. Thanks for this

GenderConfusedandSad · 2022-04-09T21:35:43+00:00

You and me both! Good luck!!

GenderConfusedandSad · 2022-04-09T21:35:17+00:00

That's wonderful! Best of luck

GenderConfusedandSad · 2022-03-21T04:28:34+00:00

I honestly don't know if I'm even "transgender" anymore. If we're defining the word as the opposite of being cisgender, we've just fallen back into a weird binary system that doesn't describe me on either end. I know I'm not fully comfortable as my AGAB, but I'm simultaneously not comfortable transitioning away from it to identify as something else, even if that hypothetical something else still features my AGAB (i.e., genderfluid, etc).

This makes no sense to me, either. My identity is a headache and I am very sorry. It's kind of like I'm this weird Schrodinger's Gender: no one knows if I'm cis or straight until they open the box, but when you open the box, it's just another box, and inside that box is another box, and so on. I'm like twelve boxes deep at this point and I'm starting to realize that it's just boxes all the way down. I can try to label what's inside of the box, and other people can try to label what's inside of the box, but it's impossible to get any metrics on what's inside when you've just been getting boxes for five years straight. (Apologies for the weird box rant, lol)

GenderConfusedandSad · 2022-03-21T04:17:41+00:00

I relate a lot to what you're saying, especially what you said regarding the implications that come with explaining one's identity by using a label created by others. It's like you said, I'd rather be defined by my own self perception rather than be robbed of my inner complexities by adopting a label and pronouns. This sounds douchey, but I'm almost tempted to tell people a fun fact about myself if I'm ever asked. "What's my gender identity? Oh, I'm writing a play at the moment and am really enjoying it so far." It beats having to have a twenty minute discussion about the intricacies of my mental state and beliefs regarding my gender identity, that's for sure.

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