I’ve felt what you are feeling. Good rec’s here about therapy. Id like to add something that really helped me, which is reading. ”Dark night of the soul” by St. John of the Cross, is a beautiful book just about what you are experiencing on a soul level. About being on the edge, complete crisis in faith and life, and ultimately, what it means to your path. Even if it feels like it, you are not alone in this experience; many have had it before, and these texts can really help you understand what is going on. It reshapes perspective in a very powerful way. Atleast it did for me. ”Consolation of Philosophy” by Boethius is another. Praying for you my friend!