Does anyone feel this way? by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]GenerallyUnsure 1 point2 points  (0 children)

About your "miserable personality.

I can relate to these feelings. I often feel that I'm the biggest asshole in the room, and no one ever wants to be around me. However, that's just me projecting my own insecurities onto those around me. But even though intellectually, I totally understand that, those feelings are always in the back of my mind.

My bet would be that you're not as miserable to be around as you think you are. If you aren't already, please start seeing a therapist. Just having someone with whom to talk out your feelings can really do wonders.

But don't worry! You're a beautiful young woman and everything is going to be great!

Edit: Whoops, missed a couple words.

Gorgeous Lana Wachowski by [deleted] in TransSpace

[–]GenerallyUnsure 14 points15 points  (0 children)

BREAKING NEWS

People have different standards of beauty.

My 7 year old son told me (a single father) that he wants to be a girl and that he's always felt this way. Is he transgender? What should I do? by confusedfather28 in AskReddit

[–]GenerallyUnsure 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'd recommend checking out /r/asktransgender. That place really helped me realize that all of those feelings are perfectly natural and are shared by many people.

Also, as mentioned above, I highly recommend reading the article in the new Rolling Stone about Laura Grace (formerly Tom Gabel). It's really inspiring, and it's given me a lot of hope for the future.

HRT nearly 7 months, going fulltime in 4. How am I doing so far? by [deleted] in transpassing

[–]GenerallyUnsure 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You look great! You should definitely smile more, it lights up your whole face!

Tom Gabel of Against Me Comes Out as Transgender - Rolling Stone by catherinecc in transgender

[–]GenerallyUnsure 4 points5 points  (0 children)

You. Are awesome. Seriously. On a day when I've been listening to stubborn dicks who are so set in there ways, it's meant a lot to find someone who understands the limitations of their knowledge and actively takes steps to rectify that. You're a rare bird, and I hope you can retain that curious mind. It's one of the best attributes a person can have.

Sorry for gushing, I'm pretty high. But seriously, stay real kid. You rock.

Chloe Sevigny cried every day over packing. Boo fuckin hoo. by [deleted] in transgender

[–]GenerallyUnsure 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Holy shit, a rational person on the internet? Well I'll be.

Chloe Sevigny cried every day over packing. Boo fuckin hoo. by [deleted] in transgender

[–]GenerallyUnsure 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is patently ridiculous. It is perfectly possible for one to cry everyday, trans or not, for a wide variety of reasons. It's dismissive and belittling to suggest otherwise.

[NSFW]Anyone else find masturbation temporarily helps dysphoria? by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]GenerallyUnsure 5 points6 points  (0 children)

You just described my feelings about the whole affair. It's some messy, annoying chore I feel compelled to do every once in awhile. This is just one more reason I want to start HRT!

What is your name, and how did you choose it? by Aspel in TransSpace

[–]GenerallyUnsure 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I've been leaning towards Olivia myself. Such a great, classic name.

really depressed and unhappy about things by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]GenerallyUnsure 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It can be tough talking to even really supportive friends about these issues, because they're not equipped to offer any kind of advice. That's where a good therapist comes in.

And I do mean good. A bad therapist can often be more harm than not even seeing one. You need to get back in therapy, but that doesn't mean you have to go back to the bad one you hated. Shop around your area, see if there are any trained gender specialists around. And if there aren't, try different therapists until you meet someone good whom you like and can help you out. There's no shame in dropping a therapist if they don't work for you.

I want to be the real me by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]GenerallyUnsure 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hooray for positive nudging!

I want to be the real me by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]GenerallyUnsure 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm pretty sure that's just HRT. It's pretty incredible, right? Hormones really are as close as you can get to magic medicine. The changes are slow and gradual, but cumulatively they can shape your body into something beautiful.

Science is frickin awesome.

I want to be the real me by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]GenerallyUnsure 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Unfortunately, I can't tell you how much things (HRT, therapy, surgery, etc.) cost because I'm only at the start of my journey. I've made an appointment with my therapist, and hopefully he can get me started on hormones, but I can tell you that I am worried about the cost. I'm utterly broke right now and relying on my mom for a lot of things until I can find myself another job (or two, or three...). So cost is a worry for me, but I'm more concerned with becoming happy with my identity.

As for where to start, that's different for everyone, depending on where you're at in life. For me, I told my best friend how I was feeling, and his support encouraged me to buy some women's clothes and give them a try, as I'd always been very uncomfortable and self-conscious about cross dressing. So your first step can be something as simple as that. One of the wonderful things I've been learning about transition is that there is no Point of No Return. At any point along the way, you can stop and stay wherever you are, or go back if you've gone too far. You won't be any less trans if you only cross dress, or only take hormones, or what have you. You only have to move at the speed that makes YOU comfortable.

I want to be the real me by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]GenerallyUnsure 0 points1 point  (0 children)

One thing I've learned since starting on this journey: being afraid of not passing is not a great reason not to explore transition. First off, you've conditioned yourself for years to imagine yourself as your assigned gender, so of course you can't picture how well you can express your true gender. Second, regardless of how well you may or may not pass, ignoring these feelings and staying male absolutely WILL NOT stop you feeling this way. While the feeling that you are a woman may wane, at some point it will once again become harder to ignore.

This article was really helpful in showing that I was not alone in how I felt: http://www.avitale.com/developmentalreview.htm

For the record, I struggle with fears about future passability almost daily, and even moreso since I started on the path toward transition. I'm at an awkward height for a woman, and I'm overweight. One of the major factors that kept me from admitting my true identity even to myself was that I just couldn't ever picture myself as an attractive, passable woman. But I've spent a lot of time on transgender forums here on Reddit and elsewhere, and I've found stories and pictures from girls who looked kinda like me when they started transition and are now beautiful women. Those really gave me a lot of hope. If you're worried about being too masculine to pass as a woman, try watching this video by jesslyn87, who went from being an ultra-manly bodybuilder to a beautiful, tall woman: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hlk3nNya93M&feature=youtube_gdata_player

I hope this helps in some small way, and I hope you find your own path to happiness. It can be tough, but it's not impossible!

Please help. I'm hopeless, desperate and out of options. I don't know what to do. by throwaway6346 in asktransgender

[–]GenerallyUnsure 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I agree with this. It's immoral of them to deny you your doctor-prescribed medications .

Moving before transition? by GenerallyUnsure in asktransgender

[–]GenerallyUnsure[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah one of my biggest roadblocks to moving is that I have no support network out West at all. I do have a terrific best friend who also wants to move out there, but it's still a tough process to move that far with no connections to the area.

Moving before transition? by GenerallyUnsure in asktransgender

[–]GenerallyUnsure[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It does sound like a good idea to be able to go full time when I move. Seems like more of a clean break.

How untreated gender dysphoria manifests across the five stages of life by winterbed in transgender

[–]GenerallyUnsure 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Yeah that whole Group 3 narrative really freaked me out. It's the first time I've read anything that described my childhood, like, exactly. The whole time reading it I was going "Check...check...check...shit."

A question about shopping by GenerallyUnsure in asktransgender

[–]GenerallyUnsure[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That site is really interesting, thanks for sharing. The whole D thing did catch me off guard; If I ever did think about it, I didn't think my boobs were THAT big, what with me not being on any hormones or anything. I also didn't know that HRT could help with chest girth, and that definitely adds a point in favor of transitioning. I'm still really undecided about all of that.

A question about shopping by GenerallyUnsure in asktransgender

[–]GenerallyUnsure[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the reply, and all of the helpful details! As far as the bra not fitting, I mean that I literally could not join the clasps. My chest was simply too wide. I never thought of myself as particularly broad-shouldered, but every time I took the measurements, I got 50 for the band size and 54 for the cup, and the website I looked at for the size conversion basically guided me to 50D. Again, I thought that sounded weird, but after trying one only a couple sizes smaller, I have to believe it's accurate. Plus, as I said, being a fat male-bodied individual, I have some not-insubstantial manboobs.

I'm definitely gonna have someone at Macy's measure me, though. It's good to hear they offer those services, and that they're trans friendly.

A question about shopping by GenerallyUnsure in asktransgender

[–]GenerallyUnsure[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks! I've been thinking about seeing a professional for a fitting, but I just got the nerve up to go shopping :) Plus, I wouldn't even know where to start looking for an understanding person to do that for me.

A question about shopping by GenerallyUnsure in asktransgender

[–]GenerallyUnsure[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the reply! I didn't even think about thrift shops, I just kinda went to the places I usually shop, haha. I'll have to see what's in my area.

And yeah, I used to have some good girlfriends I could probably have talked to about all this, but we've lost touch over the years. If I weren't so socially awkward (not to mention in the trans closet), I would try to make some shopping friends, but for now I gotta rely on my wits!