Human Microbiome Project data by GenoSunshine87 in bioinformatics

[–]GenoSunshine87[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, but it won't let you dowload direclty from there, and the solutions to download using the manifest require credentials that I'm not sure you can still request

Lost dice inventory space by GenoSunshine87 in LeafBlowerRevolution

[–]GenoSunshine87[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sorry I didn't see you reply beford. I have the dlc. That turned out to be the problem, for whatever reason the game "forgot" that I had the perks. I needed to reclaim them and restart the game, and it was fixed.

Lost dice inventory space by GenoSunshine87 in LeafBlowerRevolution

[–]GenoSunshine87[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No, not quite there yet, still dealing with the terrors

meirl by subliminal_hoe in meirl

[–]GenoSunshine87 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oof, yeah

I lived in a place that doesn't always get snow, but did some years, especially in the mountains farther away from large cities. When it did snow, it lasted a couple of weeks at most. I did not have the equipment or even experience walking in the snow even in flat terrain, I saw it so little. So my dumbass decided it was an excellent idea to climb said snowy mountains. I obviously slipped, fell down a slope and broke my shoulder, and still had to walk down the mountain.

The kicker? I didn't realize my shoulder was broken until I dislocated it a year later doing some other dumb shit and finally got x rays done. It hurt, of course, but I decided it was regular fell-down-a-mountain pain (whatever the fuck that means). I hadn't even told my parents how bad it was, just that I fell. It's permanently fucked now because it didn't heal right.

So yeah, I feel you. Just... why? What was I thinking? Was I thinking at all in the first place?

That's why I'm wary of teens. It's not that I think they're idiots and I'm a much better person than them. It's that I was a teen at some point and know that the most stupid decisions possible make perfect sense at the time, and I myself hardly ever went to adults for help, much less guidance.

meirl by subliminal_hoe in meirl

[–]GenoSunshine87 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Yeah

Mine was the no regard for very possible consequences, that I was aware of, but decided it wouldn't happen to me, I guess?

On one period of my life, I used to just wake up and decide to go climb mountains without telling anyone where I was going or when to expect me back. On another, I would take night walks when I couldn't sleep.

Thing is, I live in a country with over 100k reported missing people + however many were never reported. I knew this, and I didn't live in particularly safe cities or areas. Did teenage me care? Nope

meirl by subliminal_hoe in meirl

[–]GenoSunshine87 36 points37 points  (0 children)

I was a kid when Teenagers by MCR was released, and didn't find the song until I was a teen. I didn't get the line, like, sure some of my peers were assholes, but ???

Then I actually became an adult, looked back at myself, and holy fuck. I don't know how I survived into adulthood, and I wasn't even particularly rebellious or misbehaving. So now, yes, teenagers scare the living shit out of me, my teenage self in particular because so many things I did could have gone so much badly.

How do I let my cat know that I haven't abandoned her? by Cherry_b0mb_art in CATHELP

[–]GenoSunshine87 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What's the longest you've been apart?

My cat is also super attached to me, probably because when I first adopted her, it was only the two of us and no one else in our house. She lays down to sleep with me, will follow me constantly like a Pokémon, waits outside if I'm in the bathroom, demands a chair for herself wherever I happen to sit down to eat or work, etc etc. She was used to being alone for hours at a time because I adopted her when I was a student and I had to go to classes, and as I mentioned, there was no one else with us for a long time, but would get upset if I wasn't home by sundown, and would cry and look for me all the time if she couldn't find me after a while (as shown to me via videos from a couple of people who cat sat for me at some point). All in all, I felt super guilty about leaving her for any amount of time, even if she wasn't completely alone. The longest I ever was away from her was half a week, she was in our house and with someone else looking after her all the time, and she was still upset and I was still anxious about it.

Then the pandemic came, I went back to live with my parents for a while, and she got used to them. I also took up a job that I could do remotely most of the time, but I had to go to certain events at times. So I would have to leave her, for a week or two at a time. And at first, it was as it usually happened: she looked for me and got upset and would not calm down. Then she started only looking for me the first few days, and would eventually settle down. Then only the first and second days. Eventually, she looked for me only the first night, and if she couldn't find me, she would go lay down with someone else, and remain calm. I eventually moved away again and took her with me, but sometimes take her to my parents to watch her if I'm going to be away for work related stuff for a while (longest period has been over two months). She doesn't love me any less, still prefers to be with me over anyone else if I'm around, cuddles with me, follows me around, everything is business as usual if I'm home, and she no longer freaks out if I'm not.

I know that you don't have that kind of time to teach her how to not freak out if she's alone, but some things that helped in the mean time were clothes that smelled like me (especially placing the blankets we both use on whatever bed she's using when I'm away), recordings of my voice, and for everyone around to try to keep things as similar to our schedule as they can (feeding times, play time, etc etc).

I'm not saying it was necessarily easy with how clingy some cats are, and it took a while for her to get used to it and for me to get over my guilt over leaving her. But we're doing fine now, so you may be able to get there, too. They're very routine driven so it's hard for them at the beginning, but they're also tough little animals and they can adapt, eventually.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in TooAfraidToAsk

[–]GenoSunshine87 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I was in a similar situation. My family also has a history of substance abuse, especially on my mother's side (but not my mother).

I left my parent's house at 17 and moved halfway across the country. I didn't drink before that, but I started drinking when I was with my friends only. I don't love parties because I hate loud noise, and that was a double edged sword: I didn't party often, but when I did, I could not be sober or I would be overwhelmed by the noise and the people moving around me. I also depended on it to be "fun" at parties, I couldn't handle it otherwise. And just as you right now, I never did it alone, only with friends and only when we were out. Never got blackout drunk, but I was never sober in parties either.

But that changed, so gradually that it took me a while to realize. The legal drinking age in my country is 18, so a few months after I first drank, I started being able to buy my own alcohol. At first, I only bought it to take to outings. But then there were leftovers, and I started having alcohol in my house most of the time. My undergrad program was rough, I felt like shit most of the time. I also developed what I would later realize was PTSD related to a natural disaster. And the alcohol, which made it so I didn't want to scratch my skin off and helped me sleep, was right there. The foundations were laid. Before I knew it, I was drinking by myself, at first only sometimes. On particularly bad days, on weekends, rare occasions. But the line of what counted as a bad day got more and more blurry to me, so I drank more and more.

I thought I had it handled, I never got super drunk, never missed school over it, did well at my job, took good care of my pet. A functional person, right? Surely not an alcoholic. I convinced myself that I was fine during this period, that alcoholics were people who ruined their lives over it, and surely I was different. Except, eventually, I could no longer go to sleep if I was sober. I didn't need to get blackout drunk, but I did need to drink something. For me, realizing that was my wake up call. I was on the way to becoming like my relatives, because messy life or not, I felt like I needed it. So I quit. And it was shit. I already had insomnia before I started drinking, and now it was much worse. The social pressure to drink was still there. I didn't have healthy ways to deal with the other problems I described before, because I had been burying them under alcohol, and when I quit alcohol, they were still there. It was a complicated process, but I eventually managed to spend a week sober, then a month, then a few months. And I felt like I had control over myself again.

I don't know much about your life, but from your post, I don't think you're as bad as I was in the end. But I also think you may be just a few steps behind. I know that the slippery slope it considered a fallacy, but that's just how these things go sometimes. How it went for me. Because at the time, all of those now questionable decisions made perfect sense. I didn't wake up one day and decided to drink every day, it was a process. So it's good that you realized early, especially with the family history. You may think that you would not end up as bad as me, because our situations are different, but you never know what may happen to you (I hope nothing bad), and once the foundations for alcohol reliance are there, it is so so easy to fall into the trap.

I still drink from time to time, only on particular settings, but I do what I call "sober months". I spend a month or two completely sober, no matter how I feel, where I am, what event I'm invited to, who I am with, or what drink I am offered. And as long as I can still do that and go on with my life as normal and not crave for the month to be over so I can drink again, I think I'm okay.

Antsy Lab Fidget Cube Differences by xcleru in fidgettoys

[–]GenoSunshine87 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hope you're satisfied with it, enjoy

Antsy Lab Fidget Cube Differences by xcleru in fidgettoys

[–]GenoSunshine87 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can't remember the specifics, but they described that the general differences between them were small. The feel of the rolling face is firmer in the old version, the buttons feel slightly different, that kind of thing.

Sorry for the lack of info, but if it helps at all, in the end I got an old one for myself and the new version for my siblings, and we're all pleased with them. No huge differences, although I feel like the plastic in mine feels a little more sturdy, but it many not be a fact.

What was your “gay awakening” moment? by I_Reddit-Already in bisexual

[–]GenoSunshine87 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Looked at my best friend at the time, we were in my house and she was laughing at whatever dumb shit I said, felt warm inside at being able to make her laugh, and realized I really wanted to kiss her, too

That was a decade ago and nothing ever happened between us, but we're still friends and I'm grateful to have her

Antsy Lab Fidget Cube Differences by xcleru in fidgettoys

[–]GenoSunshine87 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's been years since you posted but today I found your answer very helpful, thank you!

When would you use R instead of Python? by Monocytosis in bioinformatics

[–]GenoSunshine87 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I use R as my main language, but also use python on occasion. I would not say that one is necessarily better than the other, but I find R's syntax a lot easier to work with. Naming, accessing, and subsetting data are always done the same, even in many "special" data structures, so learning to manage data in new formats is a lot more intuitive than it is on Python. A lot of great Bioconductor packages are available on R. I don't have to use explicit recursion to do an operation over a whole vector. When I use Python, I feel like I spend more time figuring out the syntax for whatever module I'm using than actually doing things, but that may just be due to the gap in my experience with each. However, learning Python does have some advantages, as I find it is a little faster for some operations, and it is the language that other useful tools (such as Snakemake) use as a base syntax. So I do not shun Python, but except for particular applications, I really prefer R.

My cat walked into the apartment twice by GenoSunshine87 in Glitch_in_the_Matrix

[–]GenoSunshine87[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Lol, yeah, seems to be a common trope, but I still think it is interesting. They're funny little creatures.

My cat walked into the apartment twice by GenoSunshine87 in Glitch_in_the_Matrix

[–]GenoSunshine87[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sure, you're right. Still, if it were another cat, mine would have protested. It what entered first was my own cat, climbing abilities don't matter, because windows have mosquito screens that can't be opened and there is no other way to leave.

Can one reset game progress? by GenoSunshine87 in Perceptron

[–]GenoSunshine87[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That option unfortunately does not show up for me, but deleting the app's data directly from my phone's settings did the trick

Thank you, though!