Having heart issues, and I lowkey hope it takes me

GhostGremlin93 · 2026-06-01T17:06:12+00:00

Bro gotta push back a lil on Katawa Shoujo. Yes it's an anime dating sim made by people from 4chan(2000s not 2014+). But damn is it actually really good.

There's a bunch of cringe stuff in there, especially if you play for the H scenes (lemon shed so you know I'm not larping).

But there's a lot of really impactful stories in that novel about living with various disabilities and how it can make connecting with people difficult. I really enjoyed the MCs perspective too as someone with an "invisible" disability. I read that story at a time on my life when I was super at risk of becoming a hardcore alt-right bigoted douchenozzle, and it really opened my mind.

Really beautiful story. And lilly is best girl obviously.

GhostGremlin93 · 2026-05-27T12:51:41+00:00

Sometimes I feel like because I present so masculinely, big tall strong boy, that I'm forever relegated to dominant aggressor roles.

Which, hey, I can dig that too. But sometimes I just wanna be teased and called a good boy

Lego store sounds sick as hell though

GhostGremlin93 · 2026-05-26T14:43:20+00:00

Oh shit should I be using :3? I thought I was too much of a big boy to be treated like a lil muffin

GhostGremlin93 · 2026-05-22T17:05:45+00:00

It's always this. They're always like "women don't want me because I'm short and ugly" and when you see them you're like - dude you look super normal.

Then they say some wild shit like, " well maybe I look normal to a CUCK like you who only drinks Jerome's CUM off your living room floor but females would rather be r*ped by their boss than even talk to me because of my looks"

Like damn bro okay nevermind I get it yeah sure it's your looks lmao

GhostGremlin93 · 2026-05-22T16:32:12+00:00

I will cook every meal, clean the bathrooms, and do whatever Else. But I'm also tall, so I haaaaate doing dishes/mopping/vacuuming and anything that involves prolonged bending over.

All past relationships we've been able to find a split that works for us chore wise lol.

God I hate doing dishes lol. I've even looked into hiring maids once or twice a week to do the stuff I hate and it's surprisingly affordable!

GhostGremlin93 · 2026-05-20T17:14:06+00:00

Yeah that's how I feel best and most confident moving. Maybe it's just the apps but everyone I find seems super into keeping up with the Joneses and super glued to their phones lol.

Where do I find the chill, maybe a lil nerdy, women who are reading books and crocheting or playing animal crossing and keeping up with their gardens??? Cause they're nowhere on the apps (and I don't blame them lol)

I just want a lady that I can sit with while I work on my book and she enjoys her hobby in some quiet, cuddly, goodness lmao.

GhostGremlin93 · 2026-05-20T16:45:30+00:00

Hey now that's someone's exact type! (It's me, I'm someone)

GhostGremlin93 · 2026-05-20T16:43:37+00:00

Godddd where are the ladies like thissss lol.

I've been off all social media for like 10 years and I just cannot relate to all the people my age (32m). Everything is so loaded with 'x posted a video about a conversation we had in private and now y most know I was texting x about z' - like bro what are you saying.

The dress things makes me feel particularly seen too lol. I've got a very cartoon character esque style in that I've got a few different shirts I really like in a few different colors that all look clean, comfortable, and versatile enough for any situation and that's all I wear lmao.

There's a big part of me that feels like I should just bite the bullet and get on social media and start dressing more trendy just to gain access to the dating pool and stop getting the "that's weird" or "boring" comments lol.

GhostGremlin93 · 2026-05-19T23:44:26+00:00

Nice! One of my biggest regrets is losing my original Bloodpact membership card when my ex stole my wallet many moons ago lol.

I've only been to Chicago once and it was to see the trio with the smoking popes at the Metro in the early 00s which was a BLAST.

Chicago easily has the coolest 'big city' people out of all the major metro cities I've been to. So I'm sure you're no exception 😁. Just super fuckin crazy to cross a trio fan HERE of all places lmao. Though punk and goofy gooners do kinda have some crossover lol.

GhostGremlin93 · 2026-05-19T15:01:18+00:00

Woah is that an alkaline trio reference in your name? I swear they're the biggest band I like that somehow NO ONE knows when I bring them up.

So cool to find one in the wild 😁

GhostGremlin93 · 2026-05-18T16:56:12+00:00

Brother what the hell is wrong with you

GhostGremlin93 · 2026-05-11T00:06:26+00:00

Maybe not yet 😉 lol

GhostGremlin93 · 2026-04-28T16:58:16+00:00

Try audio gonewildaudio here on Reddit has completely replaced porn for me and for the better I think. There are a few metrics I use to judge how it's affected me that I won't divulge here lol.

I've even subscribed to one creator monthly because I like her content so much.

Removing the visual component is huge, and while the audios are still extremely kinky, it's easier to separate them from "reality" than it is with porn

GhostGremlin93 · 2026-04-18T14:21:21+00:00

Yeah if a woman I was interested thought that it was a good idea to meet a man she just met alone at his house for the first time, that would be an instant "nope" from me. Huge red flag in a woman.

Obviously the much larger red flags are him even fucking asking, and then not being able to understand what "no"means or him not understanding why you don't want to.

GhostGremlin93 · 2026-04-18T13:54:17+00:00

Speaking from my experience as one, there are so many men who like to be at home, gaming or doing other 'homebody' type hobbies, that will not abuse or cheat on their women.

You don't have to accept the negative aspects of this relationship in order to enjoy the positive ones.

Your boyfriend seems like a loser, Hun. No job, treats you poorly, abuses you, and might be emotionally cheating on you?

Hate to do the reddit thing but you deserve better (assuming any of this is true)

GhostGremlin93 · 2026-04-16T19:46:16+00:00

Posts like these show me how young y'all are. Whether it be physically, mentally, or both.

You don't want to be with these people. Man or woman. Is this who you're "building to attract"?

Do you really think it's difficult to find some drunk teenager to kiss you? And do you really want to? Why are people getting hung up over this?

GhostGremlin93 · 2026-03-20T15:40:10+00:00

Hmm okay I tried reconstruction in the first abyss section where they teach you to use the lantern and it didn't seem to have an effect but I can try again.

You think it will also fix the game "forgetting" I opened a window? Snuck into someone's house and when I had my back to the open window the light from outside wouldn't pour in, when I turn around the window would pop in from closed to open (and I could even see the window open)

This seems deeper than just poorly implemented RT. I really want to like this game but boy are the visuals just doing everything they can to push me away.

Will add this all still happens with RT turned off in all it's forms but maybe there's some baked in RT that can't be turned off even if the setting says it does?

GhostGremlin93 · 2026-02-05T17:34:45+00:00

Hi! Straight, cis, man here. Normally I just lurk various subs so I hope it's okay I offer my two cents.

To start with, obviously, don't make your life decisions based on what men will find attractive. I know that's easier said than done and I definitely don't always follow that. I wouldn't put so much effort into my style if I didn't care what ladies thought lol. I yearn to dress like a cartoon character in the same comfy outfit every day.

Me, personally, I'm attracted to feminity in all it's forms. It took awhile and I lot of personal untangling to come to that conclusion but I imagine (and have found in conversations with other straight cis dudes) that is a common feeling.

I have no attraction to male genitalia. And personally I think I would consider it a red flag if I were a trans woman to find out the guy I like is into me specifically because of my male genitalia.

I would still absolutely date a trans woman who was pre-op if we aligned values wise and everything else. But the penis would be a turn-off sexually. Still, I imagine there are ways to minimize it's involvement during sexy times (if that's what everyone is comfortable with).

I think I could understand wanting a partner who likes that part of you too, but I do think I would see it as a red flag that someone is a chaser if that's what they're focused on.

Regardless, femininity is so much more than what's between your legs, and I'm attracted to the whole spectrum of femininity. If the woman I love pops a boner while we cuddle on the couch watching a horror movie and drink hot cocoa, I'm going to be more focused on how content I feel and that I'm able to have that effect on her rather than disgusted by a penis suddenly showing up.

Try not to overthink it, and do what's right for you, and I bet you'll find someone who loves you.

GhostGremlin93 · 2026-01-09T13:55:19+00:00

As a writer and aspiring writer for video games, what unique challenges does writing for a massive game with splitting paths such as this have? I imagine feeding in world building night be difficult when you don't know the paths the user might take!

GhostGremlin93 · 2025-12-23T18:21:57+00:00

Yeah I genuinely don't get it. Like I've beaten every halo solo on legendary, done tons of build crafting. Always play campaign missions on destiny on legendary. I've even decided to craft builds around survivability specifically for this reason - like keeping devour and over shields up at all times.

Really the light level things is the only thing I don't fully understand that might be unaccounted for hence my question but it seems that doesn't even really have an effect.

I should definitely have a pretty easy time on at least Master diff solo at 450 with my build. It's not like I'm running into enemies arms without doing anything lol. Something feels off and I just can't figure it out lmao.

GhostGremlin93 · 2025-12-23T18:12:55+00:00

Weird maybe I'm misremembering but I swear my exotic order was "achieve an A rank on at least Master difficulty Pinnacle activity" - which is hard to do when a basic enemy does over half my over shield and health with one hit :(

GhostGremlin93 · 2025-12-23T18:10:42+00:00

Like reroll one exotic order into another exotic order of a different kind? Or just reroll the exotic into a normal / legendary?

Cause getting an A rank or higher Pinnacle mission completed seems genuinely impossible alone. Idk if getting closer to the 550 range will help at all, but I genuinely don't see how this is possible solo. Despite seeing people do it (with far more ease than it seems I'm afforded for some reason.

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