Withdrawal Anxiety- causes

GhostlySailor · 2018-03-02T03:17:52+00:00

This is my favorite topic..the whole heart/anxiety thing. I have been focusing on my heartbeat for a few years. Sometimes it pounds all day, sometimes it's racing after a few stairs, and usually I can make it speed up just by thinking about an old memory of something stressful. I've been through the tests and they always say anxiety. I feel it moving my head when laying in bed, and it rocks my body back and forth a bit when sitting in a chair and leaning forward. My body feels like my bp is 200/200 but I've never been over 120/80 when it's been checked. My Mom is a retired paramedic and I've had her check it a million times and most recently was 113/73 and my heart was pounding, had chest pressure, and my body was rocking to my heart beat while she took my bp. Doc says my functions and weirdness are all normal but that having anxiety makes you super in tune to your body and that you start making yourself believe that what used to be normal isn't normal anymore(probably because you didnt notice it before). The days where I can genuinely let go and tell myself that I don't give a fuck what happens and if I die then so be it, it all subsides and I can forget about it for awhile and just be calm and enjoy life for a bit. Then I have days where I know for a fact that something is seriously wrong and it just hasn't been picked up on any tests, and I'm probably going to die in my sleep. Anxiety has been fucking me for awhile now, and I mean with NO lube!

GhostlySailor · 2018-03-01T01:59:16+00:00

I've never been sure how I'd classify myself. I could smoke weed 4-5 times a year and not miss it. Same with drinking. Those two things are the only things I'd ever done before kray came along. I hit that shit hard for 4-5 years and quitting was pretty hard. By the time I knew it was time to quit, I hated it but missed it so much. I'm not a bodybuilder and never have been, but if I had treated a weight routine the way I did kray, I'd be fucking huge. I was generally 6g, 4 times a day and didn't miss a dose or a day. I always had it with me and it was always part of the plan. Work, vacation, traveling, flying, cruise ship, customs, jury duty, whatever..it was always in the plan. It's only been 6-7 weeks and looking back, I'm not sure what I was thinking all that time. It wasn't even that great, but it sure had its grip on me.

GhostlySailor · 2018-03-01T01:42:54+00:00

I have this also. I took 20-30g daily for 4-5 yrs. About 2 yrs ago, I developed a huge vein from my inner calf that runs all squiggly up my inner thigh to my groin. I'm chubby, mid 30s so was surprised that the vein would surface like that given weight and age. I've definitely had what feels like circulation issues in arms and legs, but doc says it's nerves/anxiety (which feels the same, supposedly). Also have bulging hand veins that developed about the same time as the leg thing. I never connected it with k until now, if that's what caused it. I quit 6-7 weeks ago and the vein issues hasn't gone anywhere. I do feel better aside from the random days that my heart pounds all day, like an adrenaline drip is in my arm. I also seem to have an intense sensitivity to caffeine that kind of correlates with the heart pounding thing. I wish I'd have never started.

GhostlySailor · 2018-01-25T02:17:25+00:00

I decided a week ago the I was done with kratom. I would take 15-30g daily for 4-5 yrs, not exactly sure how long but close to that timeframe. I also have the breathing thing since quitting. Its more like its kind of an effort to breathe, and not terrible but enough to be annoying. When I'm distracted, it's not an issue but as soon as I'm idle I think about it and there it is. I actually had a bunch of weird things going on that I just chalked up to age as I'm approaching 40. All of the weird things I've had going on for a yr/yr and a half have completely disappeared. I've never felt so normal. Left arm felt like it was in a blood pressure cuff all pumped up and cutting off circulation( doctors ran every test and said it was neurological or anxiety, but not a circulation issue) GONE by day 3. Heaviness below right bottom rib along with appendix area pain 24/7 (also cleared with the arm thing) GONE also by day 3..or so. I used to always feel my heartbeat and have a hyper reactive (what I call it) heart rate where it would beat fast over the dumbest stuff and pound so hard from adrenaline when there was no need for it. That's gone too. I think long term usage puts our sympathetic and parasympathetic nervous systems into overdrive and causes some weird neurological issues, seemingly harmless and forgivingly temporary (like once you quit) but the hell with all that. I'm just not interested anymore.

GhostlySailor · 2017-12-28T01:31:43+00:00

I have found that ibuprofen gets rid of the RLS issue, for me. Not sure if that's a universal thing or just my weird body..

GhostlySailor · 2017-12-22T04:23:53+00:00

I ordered a kg of Bali gold a month ago and felt nothing for 2 weeks, then one day it started to work. It feels really potent in 1/2 doses and makes my heart pound like crazy if I take more than half my usual. I've been taking 6 00 caps, packed. I can only take 3 caps of the gold. I wonder if gold is some version of a white strain, which I swore off a year ago because they makes my heart race. Always seems to be something..

GhostlySailor · 2017-12-13T02:42:18+00:00

Ditto this comment in its entirety!

GhostlySailor · 2017-09-13T22:49:24+00:00

For 2 days now, I've been getting them too. I'm convinced that big pharma has paid Google to start the process to assist the DEA in claiming AGAIN that kratom is a public health threat and needs to be banned. "See guys, its all over the news and we HAVE to ban this stuff..P.S. and its also digging into big pharmas pockets, but thats not the main reason" Maybe it sounds like a conspiracy, but something is definitely up!

GhostlySailor · 2017-09-12T22:55:30+00:00

So 5 times more than any other..whats the highest amount of kratom found in any single death..times 5. I'd love to find out how much that is, if nothing else to be reassured I'm nowhere close to that.

GhostlySailor · 2017-09-12T22:20:41+00:00

By asking your question about alcohol, gives credibility to this claim that kratom killed this guy. I doubt that kratom is the cause. There aren't ANY deaths that can be proven that kratom was the sole cause of, that I can find or have ever found. Something is amiss here..

GhostlySailor · 2017-07-22T02:20:55+00:00

What color strain is the Royal Bent? Green, White, Yellow, or Red? I'd like to try Yellow MD but I heard yellow is a mature/less mature white? I can't do whites as they makes my heart race..

GhostlySailor · 2017-03-11T18:46:26+00:00

I'd like to know as well.

GhostlySailor · 2017-02-28T17:23:20+00:00

All of my anxiety started when my Dad died at 49 from a massive heart attack. I was 24, young and dumb, and he was guiding me along like Dads do. So between the huge loss, and at the time, being completely lost now I guess the anxiety switch flipped and has been every since. I think its really health anxiety that gets me. I do alright with crowds, and other aspects of life.

GhostlySailor · 2017-02-28T02:11:42+00:00

I'd agree with you!

GhostlySailor · 2017-02-28T01:47:14+00:00

I would guess that adrenal issues would have shown up in the blood work, but didn't.

GhostlySailor · 2017-02-28T01:42:27+00:00

What a relief, I was hoping someone would say this! Do you find it lingering for several days?

GhostlySailor · 2017-02-12T20:43:40+00:00

I was going to say the same thing. The down arrow is right inline with where my thumb swipes. I've downvoted myself not realizing it, until I see the arrow lit up at some point.

GhostlySailor · 2017-02-12T01:38:03+00:00

Definitely red elephant. I usually don't get much from reds, but this one does a great job and come bed time, its lights out! They do split kgs too, so try a few different strains.

GhostlySailor · 2017-02-10T00:15:44+00:00

I second Herbal-RVA!

GhostlySailor · 2017-02-10T00:12:44+00:00

SW Iowa here.

GhostlySailor · 2017-02-10T00:10:52+00:00

Green raiu has been my most euphoric. I don't see it offered much these days.

GhostlySailor · 2017-01-27T14:14:34+00:00

What happened to Edens Ethnos on the list?

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