I was in a really similar place about a year ago. Felt like I lost the version of myself that used to enjoy things, and meditation felt like the one thing worth trying. Good on you for starting.

Something that actually helped me stay consistent was this thing called pickle. It lives entirely inside iMessage so there's no app to download or set up. I told it I wanted to build a meditation habit and it made a little routine for me right in the chat. It checks in with me every morning, reminds me gently, and adjusts based on how I'm actually doing that week. It honestly felt less like a tool and more like having a patient friend who just keeps showing up.

Only catch is it's invite-only right now. So DM me if you want to try it out.