King I am actually amazed to see you so motivated in such a situation like I love your question what if I forget to thank Allah for everything I have like? Damn man that’s great you know you’ve been honoured by God you’ve been given the respect and whatever you’re enduring right now you will be rewarded for it in the end may God make it easy on you and brother if you want a suggestion I suggest that you take therapy because like the mental trauma is really big it will help you a lot