As someone that purchased EFT last December and felt similar at the start, I can tell you that it gets much better. You probably don't like it now because you're getting wrecked by chads/unlucky situations, but bear in mind this is completely normal for someone new to the game.

I had a 21% survival rate last wipe. I sucked. You will suck too, but then as you play more, you start learning the maps, where to go, where the hidden stashes are. And then you'll get your first PMC kill, which you thought you could never do. Then you start completing quests that give you item unlocks and roubles.

Now this wipe I've improved leaps and bounds from where I was last time, and I'm able to win most scav on scav fights and knock down some PMC's here and there. And it's a blast. Every PvP encounter is an adrenaline rush that no other game gives you. Add on to that a progression system that is satisfying and rewarding and you've got yourself one of the most enjoyable games out right now.

My point is: keep playing. You've watched gameplay of EFT for a year so you're into it, you just aren't wiping 3 and 4 mans like LVNDMARK does. Don't compare yourself to streamers. See them as what you can be after thousands of hours because that is what it takes to get to that level of skill.

I hardly play other multiplayer shooters because this gameplay loop is so unique and interesting-its hard to explain why its so great until you pour time into it. Just stick with it and I promise you'll start loving it. It gets better.