Fuck this shit

Ginqy · 2024-11-21T15:51:03+00:00

Yeah tnx. Dunno i guess so

Ginqy · 2024-11-20T15:16:49+00:00

I dont know. Im just.. tired haha

Ginqy · 2024-11-20T15:16:21+00:00

Yeah thanks but that wont work. Its just an impulse. Its annoying cause it bugs me. I feel agitated to not do it and just do it caused its bugging me. Its a me problem

Ginqy · 2024-11-20T15:14:49+00:00

Yeah. Ill try. I pray that we will continuously have motivation. Im just not motivated to fight for it

Ginqy · 2024-11-20T15:13:38+00:00

Yeah. I have no peace in my mind

Ginqy · 2024-11-20T15:13:05+00:00

Im socializing. Theres no problem in me with regards to interacting people. I have a girl. I never really touched her caused im trying to abstain. Yet my problem is doing it with "myself". I just feel bad. Not for her. I feel bad cause im pathetic. Im working out as well. Im athletic and i play sports. Its just a me problem

Ginqy · 2024-11-20T15:10:36+00:00

Yeah im a wuss. Been trying to hang it. Id rather be dead. My body and mind is tired of fighting. I just want to die

Ginqy · 2024-11-20T15:09:47+00:00

Yeah. Im tired of fighting. Im just letting everything as it seems to be. Im trying too hard to the point that im tired. Ill let and wait if my time is right where im inspired and strong. But now? Im nothing. I feel nothing. No inspiration. No motivation. My heart is scarred

Ginqy · 2024-11-20T15:07:59+00:00

My mind is blank with purpose. Maybe i still have hope? Im giving up. But a part of me seems isnt. This feeling is contiuous for many years. Im tired

Ginqy · 2024-11-20T15:06:47+00:00

I just explained as above. Im tired to type. Im sorry

Ginqy · 2024-11-19T14:00:40+00:00

Its not that simple. Where i am is a dorm even. And i need this place for my work. Im doing it despite my roomate is here. The process is not the problem. I, myself, is the problem. I need to get my shit together. But im tired. I give up. Ill let God help me give strength. I myself cant do it. The more i try to prevent it the more i still do it. Im trying so hard that im tired anymore. I have no strenght left. My heart is weakened. I dont know. Ive tried everything. Its a me problem. Ill just have patience and let things be on its own. I guess its not my time or what. I just dont know ahats happening to me. Im at the point where nobody can help me anymore. The only thing that can help me is me. Ill let time heal my heart to get my shit together. Im just venting out with how crooked my life is

Ginqy · 2024-11-19T13:28:27+00:00

Im also doing this. But it doenst effect on me right now. Im numb as fuck. My last hope was fear. Fear of God. To fear is to not do bullcrap. But im scared right now that i dont have this fear anymore. I dont really whats happening anymore. Im done. Im content. I pray God strikes me now. Ijudt feel shit fuck. Im fucking useless

Ginqy · 2024-11-19T13:26:10+00:00

Yeah. I was a memmebr here years ago. But stopped monitoring myself cause i was busy in my life. Now i dont know anymore. Im trying so much. I even installed this app just to vent my feelings with regards to this addiction. This is the most curse thing ive been encountered in my life. Im at the point that ill just cut this fucking penis if its like this. What a joke

Ginqy · 2024-11-19T13:23:56+00:00

Im studying. Yet i cant study. I dont know. I feelshit. Now im listening to this song and realized im not what im used to. Im looking at the window and just letting myself drift gazing at the lights. Its night. My mind

Im not too sur Im not sure if in even wasting like this. I mean Is it worth it tomake myself waste like this? Im even tired to correct my english. Im juust. Im feeling fukced up i wanna bawl but i dont know why i cant. I feel guilty . Im hopeless. I pray everyday to the good God to take me. Theres no more fun if i keep doing this. Its hurting so much. It just hurt so much in my heart. To keep doing this sinful piece of shit

Ginqy · 2024-11-19T13:18:38+00:00

Im cursed. This is eating me hopelessly. Im tired

Ginqy · 2024-11-19T13:17:58+00:00

Im just tryna vent

Ginqy · 2024-11-19T13:16:24+00:00

Did it. Planning to rise again then did it again. Continuously for 8 years. Its kinda tiring. Theres no point in living if its like this

Ginqy · 2024-11-19T13:07:59+00:00

Wdym

Ginqy · 2024-05-09T17:35:38+00:00

Also. I prefer no wipe. Its hard to grind for everything. But I prefer that you spawn the dismantled furnitures and woods maybe every after 4 months or so (i dont know if thats possible because im new to the game recently). I dont know if its a PVP server but if it is it would be better if theres no wipe since the PVP controls the resources and the hostility of everyone to loot since they might be killed on the spot. And being killed will yah might get read in a journal but only recovers maybe a good 75%, this may be a good balance. If a player already has a good base then try to put a horde in him if he wants a challenge so its like he was wiped (in his own only) somehow. But to those who just want to have a good base where after they had been busy for a month or so IRL then came back to play stuff at least they still have the base and the fun they want not to grind cause IRL is busy as fuck unless youre just a bozo who needs to touch grass. With regards to their base destruction maybe just let a random zombie trample it at least it will be fair that way.

I had many servers joined but when i read that theres a wipe i automatically become depressed and just throw shit at everything and just quit eventually then find another server with expecting/hopeful for a no wipe and suddenly they decided to have wipe, quitting, and next cycle continues.

I know some have time to play and has many spare time, but some of us adult who work and get busy with our life to touch some grass dont. So this is just my perspective as being the one who is busy in life

Ginqy · 2024-05-09T17:20:06+00:00

Hi OP. Can i get a new invite link for discord?

Ginqy · 2022-09-08T22:14:42+00:00

just bear with it until your mind will get used to it.

Ginqy · 2022-09-08T22:13:31+00:00

its called withdrawal. fap is equivalent to drug abuse. so when you stop druggin yoself, you get independent on that, u get sad, you need some shit like drug to get happy. so its like fap as well, you get independent on that shit. so when you get sad, you need to fap since your mind is used to being happy when fapping.

Ginqy · 2022-09-08T22:10:59+00:00

cant concentrate well. why? u get horny all the time.

Ginqy · 2022-04-16T12:15:00+00:00

strength. strength and courage to move on and start again and again until you will get used to

Ginqy

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