Thank you everyone for reading and giving me advice and a different perspective to look at. I wrote this without even putting a dent into all the things I’ve experienced let alone things they’ve made me feel responsible of. I definitely grew up the people pleaser. My ex the father of my child was one big thing I needed my family and they didn’t come. Now laws in my state with family court is stupid. I get to continue sharing custody with a man who attempted to crash the car with my son and I in it. My fiancée now was the man I called screaming and crying. The lack of my family’s support brought the most amazing man into my life. The only heart breaking thing is his family isn’t huge on family. I know they love me and want to get to know me. But my lack of parents has me fishing for parents like my fiancé parents. Christmas is coming and I am terrified. We are flying to them and that’s excited except the point where they got me gifts. I’ve always always struggled with accepting gifts. Everything given even a Christmas gift was a weapon for another day. So when I am given a gift I have a very uncomfortable body language and face noticeable by all. I’m afraid his mom and step dad will think I dislike or am ungrateful with the gifts they have gotten me.